Two weeks into my quit now, and the fog seems to come and go for me. I've heard others say once they were through, it was gone, but not in this case. That said, it has been a couple days outside the fog now ::knock on wood:: so maybe I am through the worst of that part.
I wanted to post here because I know new people tend to look through these threads a lot, and my experiences over the last two days might help some. In any case, I have given myself a big ol' pat on the back.
Yesterday I took off on a 3-hour drive with my brother-in-law and our 4 kids. He smokes, but not around his kids, so he had some chew...my brand, of course, as luck would have it. He took it out and offered me some right away. I wanted to give in, pretty bad, but told him about my quit at that point. He said he'd stop and buy some fake shit for me if I wanted. I hadn't tried any of the non-tobacco chews in 10+ years, but figured it'd be better than nothing for three hours. It sucked, but not bad enough to make me want to put cancer in my mouth.
Today, I drove the return trip with my wife and kids. For years, my wife and I have equated our additions (nic and food, respectively) and enabled each other. We had hit up Pizza Ranch with extended family before driving home today, and I really wanted to chew to "make her pay" for the shitty choices she made there today. I drove past two gas stations where I had previously bought chew (years before) after being 1 week or more into a 'quit' by holding my can of terrible fake dip and thinking of the shit I would get here posting Day 1 tomorrow. I made a promise today, and I quit today...and yesterday, successfully both times. But more than the promise and accountability, I have come to the point where I simply needed to man up. It's addiction. I know that. It can be ungodly strong. It's also really damn easy to say no when you equate a caver to a lab rat hitting up the coke water or orgasming themselves to death.
Anyway, I wanted a record of my two biggest successes since Day 3, so figured I'd post it here. And like I said, maybe a line or two above will help someone at some point best a single craving.
