Hey forum, everyone here seems really positive so I figured this would be the place for me.
Let's see, I'm 24 years old, my name is John, I'm from the great state of Georgia and I've been dipping heavy since I was 18. I took my first dip at around 14 and would take one throughout high school whenever I had the chance or when I could find someone who would purchase it for me.
I've ALWAYS been a heavy dipper. Over the past two years or so, going through two cans a day has been nothing. My body has learned to adjust to that much nicotine somehow. It's pretty frightening.
Bottom line, I'm ready to be done with this. This is my second attempt at quitting. I quit once before for around a month and a half then decided I'd reward myself with a cigar, which a few beers later, prompted me to buy a can and I've been in the vicious cycle ever since.
I recently finished up college, found a girl who I'd like to marry and got a good job. It's become apparent that those three things alone are worth far more than shoving some leaves in my mouth for thirty minutes. I am just very, very wary of the withdrawal symptoms I'm going to encounter.
The first time I quit I was using a solid can a day. The first four or five days was hell. I particularly remember the "fog" that many have eluded to on here. I felt numb to everything around me, my head hurt, sleep was nearly obsolete and I put on 10 pounds within two and a half weeks. My worry now is that since I've upped the amount I dip per day that these symptoms are going to double in severity.
It's gotten to a point now to where if I don't have a dip for more than two hours I'm visibly crabby and anxious to get my poison. I bought some 1st step nicoderm and smoky mountain herbal snuff but I know that I'm still going to be in for a wild ride.
Did anyone have an addiction as severe as mine has been? If so, what were your withdrawal symptoms? How did you beat it? How long were your withdrawals?
I've always thought that when you want to quit something you're not going to do it if you NEED to, you're going to be successful only if you truly WANT to. And I truly want to beat this horrible addiction I've created.
Words of advice and encouragement needed, thanks for all the support.
John