Wow was not counting on this kind of support. Ot is great to be part of a community like this. Expecially since not many in my life have any clue what im going thru. Does it ever get easier or is it a struggle every day?
I always think of quitting like trying to stand up in the water at the beach. The first 10 days are like being out there in a hurricane, it is going to take everything you got just to keep standing (don't worry thousands of us have done it) Then after that the waves calm down but they still keep hitting you. If you don't keep focused a wave can pull you back under. Unfortunately for us addicts, we are always fighting waves, they just grow less in size. This is the bed we made for ourselves. But the second you get pissed off about the waves all you need to do is look around. You're at the fucking beach! life is good.
Maybe I'm a bit tired from the 3 pounds of pulled pork I just ate, but that analogy just blew my mind...........
well said. That describes my quit very well...minus the sunburn. and the sandwich. I am really hungry for some BBQ now...
Take a look at these pages. My outlet was (is) this site - I read hundreds of posts, logged many hours in chat, and basically just slugged through the suck. It does get better, and the wave analogy is pretty spot on from where I sit.
So the side effects of dipping are... death.
What happens when you quit killing yourself? Your body kinda freaks out. You've been living in a foggy/matrix-ish/bad tom cruise movie world for 9 years. Embrace the suck. Stay quit. You will wake up in a couple days and wonder how you were functioning before. Welcome back to normal.
Here are some pointers to lessen the
side effects of killing the can. (AKA, becoming normal again). My 2bits? Drink GALLONS of water. If you can pass a pisser or the mention of a pisser doesn't awaken the need to pee, you aren't drinking enough. All the bad stuff is lessened with lots of water. Next get you something to help with the fixation - seeds, gum, fake dip, pretzels, candy.... lots of opinions on it, just find you something.
Oh, you're X time in, and it really really sucks so bad?
We've all been there and made it. Yeah, it does suck. Prepare yourself with the knowledge on this site. Arm yourself with Roll, text buddies, and quit one day at a time. There were lots of time I quit in 10 second increments - but I quit. It is SO worth it.
Quit for you. Quit like a crazy person, quit like a beserker. Just stay quit.