Good Morning!
Today I am going to stop chewing tobacco. I am a 46 year old professional with three daughters. I need to do this for me and them. Some background - I am overcoming 6-7 years of severe depression and at different points one addiction or another. Something I picked up in-between was chewing tobacco because at that point in my life I really didn't give a shit about anything and didn't care if I lived or died or got cancer or what. I frankly was hoping my life would be over.
I have been in hardcore recovery from depression and alcoholism since 11/28/16 which was my sobriety date. I have been through just about every type of therapy, medication, etc. for my depression you could think of. What finally worked for me was unplugging from the world and going to a great inpatient care facility where I received a tremendous amount of love, support and motivation. And that's where my name WarriorChief comes from.
You see, at the facility we live in lodges with other men respectfully called "Warriors" because we are all Warriors in our battle against addiction. A strong brotherhood was formed much like this online community. I now need to battle my addiction to dip like we are here. I am a Warrior and we all are Warriors against our piece of shit addictions robbing us of greater joys in life.
My dipping is constant, like many others here, so I don't need to go into details. Before I went into treatment, my wife decided to divorce me and I am going through that now which has been an excuse to keep my dipping constant. BUT, I no longer want that to be an excuse, I don't want my loneliness or isolation to be an excuse because dipping is not making me any better. It is only making me worse and will continue to make me worse.
Life is good. Life is going to be awesome. And I am looking forward to being clean.
See you on the battlefield my Warrior brothers.