Guys I apologize. I'm trying to sit hear and convince myself that's it's ok for me to dip again because I'm "not as addicted as someone else."
I know that's bullshit.
I'm an addict of nicotine. Tonite was just my mind whispering, "just one more pinch Scott. You can always stop when you want to."
I think I'm starting to realize that physically I'm ok but mentally I'm a little F'ed up.
Nite, quitters.
Glad to see you made it through the night Scott. And you are correct, it is bullshit to think you are not as addicted as someone else. Addiction is addiction. You either are or you are not. You are, I am, we all are or we wouldn't be here.
I'll tell you this. I'm on day 7 and the first 4 days were all mental for me. Then the physical portion started to show itself. Just tough it out. Drink plenty of water, at least double your normal amount. Lay off the caffine and booze for a bit. Eat a good amount of protein and get some exercise. Anything you need to do to get past it. I look at some of the more established members of this site as the example that all this confusion and discomfort will go away. I truly believe that and you should to. We just have to be ready to cowboy up and fight.
5 years is a pretty long time. Certainly enough time to get addicted.
The thing is, years really don't matter. It's hard regardless.
Looks like you've accepted that now and are ready to quit.
Start posting role and making your daily promise not to use and get this quit started.
You don't have to do it alone. You have a bunch of guys who have been in your shoes yo guide you along. You can't find that kind of support any place else.
Time to stop looking back on how many years you used. It's time to focus on NOW and being quit.
You WILL do this.
Quit on...
Welcome again Scotty.
Do or do not. There is no "try".
Bring it dude...bring your anger, your fucked up addict talk. That's what this site is all about. There is a ton to learn about our addiction. It takes time...read...humble yourself...read...listen...while you're doing all of this QLFEDD by:
posting roll
keeping your word
waking and repeating
Your life is worth fighting for, right?? It is up to YOU and you alone...it is your tongue and jaw...noone else will feel the knife cutting out the cancer.
I promise you that you're not a special butterfly...we are all addicts of the poison.
It gets better, but you have to own it, fight like hell, re-wire like a computer, want it more than life itself.
You really can do this...I dipped 30 years, 1-2 cans a day...24/7 wide open...no ninja shit, just plain ole dumbass dipping that cost me a lot. I am over 2 years quit with the KTC way.
If I can do this, so can YOU! It really is "all in our head". We are addicts, but we can "control" this addiction.
whadya say??
