Guys Gals... 4 days ago I made a decision that has and will continue to alter my view of the world. You see... like many of you I have seen the world through a plastic can for the last 18 years of my life.
As I read through many of these posts....the stories all ring so true and have made up my reality for some time.
I got hooked on the suck senior year in H.S. during football season. My thought ...its better than drinking and won't impact me physically on Friday nights! My addiction intensified as I went on to play college football where during the season your focus was on football and studying. My first year I was "red shirted" this meant more time in study hall, and less travel. Thus...more dipping. Cans of dip were all over the locker room, there was a Skoal rep that lived on campus (free samples by the case whenever you needed it)...you never had to go very far to get a dip. Now 17 years later the NCAA has banned chewing tobacco on school grounds, in its lockerrooms, and on its playing fields. It wouldn't have mattered if the rules were imposed back then...we would have found a way to dip.
Now the reality.....I'm in my late thirties....successful career....3 kids and a beautiful wife. That god damn can has become a part of my family. It is included or has been included in every decision that is/has been made either consciously or unconsciously for the last 10 years! My children's births, 1st steps, birthdays, baptisms, I have made some half-ass attempts at quitting in the past....but I'm not going to see the world through a can of suck anymore. The first couple of days were tough...wandering mind (always back to dip), reaching for the phantom spitter at my desk, and not knowing how in the hell I'm going to make it through the day!
But you know what I'm getting there...day by day. This quit is about me and for me! Just as putting that shit in my mouth for the last 18 yrs was all about me.
I look forward to the brothership and support that this site provides...you have provided a forum and have taken us shameful dippers out of the shadows and trash cans to confront their addiction head on in a community that is empathetic to the plight of its members.
Glad to be aboard. Preparing my self for Day 5 as I speak. Hell...it won't be easy.
I'm a quotes guy so I will leave you with this one from Lou Holtz:
"Ability is what you are capable of doing, Motivation determines what you do.
Attitude determines how well you do it."
