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Offline worktowin

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Re: The Struggle is Real
« Reply #7 on: October 14, 2015, 05:55:00 AM »
Welcome to a great decision. I could have written your intro, except change the 5 to 25. Being a ninja is a tough way to live. Always sneaking, lying, making excuses to leave, frantically making sure your tracks are covered. The freedom from wiping all of this shit off your to do list is indescribable. The amount of time that you will have to do what you want and with those in your life goes up, while worry goes down. Plus you get a nice fat raise out of the whole deal.

Now... As far as the addiction being beat... I have been here for a little over 1000 days. And what I have discovered is that we are different than society in general. We are addicts. We are all in with whatever we do. When we work, we fucking rock the job. I cannot tell you how many promotions have happened to dudes like you after they quit because they were already superstars before quitting, and the extra focus and energy they had after pushed them higher. When we play, we play hard. Like work, we enjoy our time off differently and more intensely. We have great relationships. You mention exercise - when we do that, we do it to extremes too. It is how we are wired. And, you know what? I wouldn't change that for the world. It is great being all in n whatever we do. We just have to be very careful in making choices.

I quit 1 day at a time. I started just like you. I was scared, hopeless, and looking for a cure. Haven't missed posting a single dsy, and I won't. Because, Taylor, if I could describe how amazing I feel you wouldn't believe me. The first 3 days are bad. You might want to call in sick honestly. I did. Then there is s week after that where your brain is just kinda fucked up. But,after that it does get better. One day, at least for me, a light switch just kinda went on and I felt better. How you feel today is not the new normal.

Stop being a rude fucker and ride this ride dude. It is worth the price of admission. Welcome aboard!!!

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Re: The Struggle is Real
« Reply #6 on: October 14, 2015, 05:07:00 AM »
Some great wisdom up above: listen to those badass quitters!

0. You've recognized you're bondage to nicotine: that is a HUGE win! "The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist;" you've hit that nic bitch with an 8.5k lumen flashlight.
1. Post roll: the formula is simple. Post a promise for today and keep that promise.
2. Check your PMs (top right: `Inbox`). When the rage hits, reach out to the KTC community. We can take it.
3. ODAAT. You are an addict. Don't forget it. You've got goals for your future--great--but try to focus on today for this one.
4. Knuckle up; beat your chest; you're in the fight now--you got this!

Now, I want to see `TaylorKS - Day 2` on the Jan 2016 roll call as soon as you wake up! Sweet dreams.

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Re: The Struggle is Real
« Reply #5 on: October 14, 2015, 03:35:00 AM »
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Thanks for all the support and especially at this time of night. It was fairly depressing to hear that i dont have a certain day to hit to consider myself free from this, but i understand that i will continually have to fight this addiction, although it will be better than what im dealing with now, and it will ALWAYS be better then when i was chewing. Can't wait for day 2, i hear it's hell. Officially one day nicotine free though!
Welcome Taylor.

You belong in the January pre-HOF group so come on in, join the DOGS, post roll and we'll be there to get you through that hell.
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Re: The Struggle is Real
« Reply #4 on: October 14, 2015, 03:21:00 AM »
Thanks for all the support and especially at this time of night. It was fairly depressing to hear that i dont have a certain day to hit to consider myself free from this, but i understand that i will continually have to fight this addiction, although it will be better than what im dealing with now, and it will ALWAYS be better then when i was chewing. Can't wait for day 2, i hear it's hell. Officially one day nicotine free though!

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Re: The Struggle is Real
« Reply #3 on: October 14, 2015, 02:17:00 AM »
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Hey my name is Taylor and im here to quit chewing. I've used nictoine since i was 17 and im now 22 almost 23. That's 5 years of my life I've hid my addiction from family, friends and most importantly women. 5 year's i have wasted money just to put that filth in my mouth. 5 year's of letting nicotine control me and not allowing me to live the life i want to live. My decision to quit was speratic, but i am ready to put up a fight. I want to accomplish some tough and near impossible goals in my life, and while praying to God, i realized that i needed to prove to myself i can conquor the impossible by first quitting nicotine. Im unsure what i want to pursue but one thing is forsure and that is i must quit to give myself the best shot at success. Im 24 hours in now. I trully think im gonna get fired at my job cus im a loose cannon and am having a very, very hard time controlling my anger. I was hungry around the clock but i work out everyday so i can deal with a little weight gain. One thing that i strongly desire is a timeline. When will i know my addiction is over? I know it may never cease but after how many days can i safely say i actually have this conquered? 30 days? 50? 100? Thanks for the support team, if you guys help me out with this ill return the favor once I've had a few months under my belt. -TS
Hey Taylor!

It sounds like there's some stuff you have to make peace with. I'll lay it out as honestly as I can. Don't let it discourage you.

1.) When will you know your addiction will be over?: Your addiction will be over when your life is over. Unfortunately, once an addict, always an addict. This is something you will have to be vigilant about the rest of your life. I could resume my nicotine addiction when I'm 70 years old if I am not vigilant.

2.) When can you say you have this conquered?: For this, I'd have to know what your definition of conquered is. I consider conquering this to be a work in progress, and here, we conquer this thing one day at a time. I have conquered nicotine for 216 days. I am working on conquering it for the 217th day today. It is impossible to give you a set-in-stone timetable for something like that, because like anything that is conquered, there can be an "uprising" if you aren't careful. The truth is, there is no finish line here, only milestones.

You know what idea immediately follows "I've got this beat"? "I can have just one." You can NEVER have just one. Not a celebratory cigar, not a smoke from a buddy, not an "occasional dip." Nothing.

HOOOOOOOOWEVER...

1.) You can and will get to a point where you no longer think about or crave dip constantly. Days, weeks, and months sometimes pass without a thought about the act of dipping. This is where you have to be VERY careful and not complacent. That is part of why we post roll here (and you should too!), to remind ourselves we are not cured. The simple act of choosing not to use nicotine for the day and announcing that to others on this site is more powerful than you can imagine. Accountability wins out.

2.) Craves become easier to dismiss, less frequent, and less intense with time. You will not always feel how you feel right now. You won't even feel as shitty as you do now next week. Right now you're in the thick of withdrawal, and you have to push through this in order to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

3.) It is entirely possible to enjoy everything you used to do with a dip in without dip.

4.) Also, you don't need a few months under your belt. You can help out today! Simply posting roll lets others know that they are not alone, and is very comforting.


I hope that at least answers a few things. I wish I could have told you "Oh yeah man, on day 150 you're cured" but you deserve honesty, and you need to know what you're fighting in order to fight it effectively.

January 16 quit group! This is your group, man! Go post roll!


Quit with you today,
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Re: The Struggle is Real
« Reply #2 on: October 14, 2015, 01:55:00 AM »
Quote from: TaylorKS
Hey my name is Taylor and im here to quit chewing. I've used nictoine since i was 17 and im now 22 almost 23. That's 5 years of my life I've hid my addiction from family, friends and most importantly women. 5 year's i have wasted money just to put that filth in my mouth. 5 year's of letting nicotine control me and not allowing me to live the life i want to live. My decision to quit was speratic, but i am ready to put up a fight. I want to accomplish some tough and near impossible goals in my life, and while praying to God, i realized that i needed to prove to myself i can conquor the impossible by first quitting nicotine. Im unsure what i want to pursue but one thing is forsure and that is i must quit to give myself the best shot at success. Im 24 hours in now. I trully think im gonna get fired at my job cus im a loose cannon and am having a very, very hard time controlling my anger. I was hungry around the clock but i work out everyday so i can deal with a little weight gain. One thing that i strongly desire is a timeline. When will i know my addiction is over? I know it may never cease but after how many days can i safely say i actually have this conquered? 30 days? 50? 100? Thanks for the support team, if you guys help me out with this ill return the favor once I've had a few months under my belt. -TS
Welcome. I'm a 35 year addict here. Unfortunately there is no cure.

We quit here One Day At A Time (ODAAT), Every Damn Day (EDD).

I'm sure the January 16 group would love to see you posting there. Go to this link and post roll. We quit 24 hours at a time. Post a promise, keep your promise, repeat. It is that simple.

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When you find yourself losing your temper remember it is not anyone else's fault that you are an addict. You have put 4,000 chemicals in your brain and it will take a while for things to sort out. If you need to rage pop on this forum or in the live chat and let it go. We are addicts here and we understand.

I quit with you today.

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The Struggle is Real
« on: October 14, 2015, 01:42:00 AM »
Hey my name is Taylor and im here to quit chewing. I've used nictoine since i was 17 and im now 22 almost 23. That's 5 years of my life I've hid my addiction from family, friends and most importantly women. 5 year's i have wasted money just to put that filth in my mouth. 5 year's of letting nicotine control me and not allowing me to live the life i want to live. My decision to quit was speratic, but i am ready to put up a fight. I want to accomplish some tough and near impossible goals in my life, and while praying to God, i realized that i needed to prove to myself i can conquor the impossible by first quitting nicotine. Im unsure what i want to pursue but one thing is forsure and that is i must quit to give myself the best shot at success. Im 24 hours in now. I trully think im gonna get fired at my job cus im a loose cannon and am having a very, very hard time controlling my anger. I was hungry around the clock but i work out everyday so i can deal with a little weight gain. One thing that i strongly desire is a timeline. When will i know my addiction is over? I know it may never cease but after how many days can i safely say i actually have this conquered? 30 days? 50? 100? Thanks for the support team, if you guys help me out with this ill return the favor once I've had a few months under my belt. -TS