Day 74 - This weekend I had my annual fantasy football draft. This year was cool because we decided to have it off site and play golf during the day and then stay at a casino that night. This was something that I've been looking forward to, but at the same time I knew would be a big challenge. I knew the Nic bitch would be all around me.
About 30 minutes into our golf round, one of my old dipping buddies, who I haven't seen in years says "I saved a pinch just for you!". I think I responded in a half a second with a NO. There was no thought put into my response, just a reaction. It almost surprised me how quick I said NO and him as well as he jumped back! After my initial quick reaction I explained in more detail my quit. He didn't press and that was that. In fact, he was happy for my quit after we talked further.
At the casino I was surrounded by cigarette smokers. I was so worried that in my drunken state of beer, fireball, beer, whiskey, beer, gin and tonic, that I would end up bumming a cigarette off some random person or friend while in my retarded state. This too didn't happen. I played a lot of craps, had fun, and never even once got close to wanting a cigarette!
When I woke up the next morning I felt like shit and was way too flippin hung-over, BUT I had a slightly different feeling that helped me power through the day. This hang-over was different in that I had my PRIDE and NO GUILT. This was probably the WORST/BEST HANG-OVER of my life, if that makes sense. This was not only a great trip, but it also was a great experience. My quit is strong and continues to get stronger, one day at a time!