Day 11. I never thought posting to a website would get me this far. My addiction is defeating. Until 11 days ago, it would take my will and confidence away every couple of hours. In the morning, I would wake up and my first thought was to dip. Not roll over and kiss my beautiful wife or go hang out with my kids. No, put a dip in even though I knew I wouldn't buzz and it would make me feel terrible. All I wanted to do was make it to work without dipping. If I could do that, maybe I could make it the whole day. I never found out if that was true until I found this website.
I was a master ninja dipper and all of those connections still exist very strongly. My strongest cravings are coming during my typical ninja moments -- my wife leaves me with the kids for errands, the boss is out so I can dip in peace at work, working outside, working around the house at night, in the car, ... I have been breaking these connections slowly but it's not easy. One of my favorite things I have read is that a craving usually lasts only 4-5 minutes. That has helped a lot!
My mouth and head have not started feeling any better. Hopefully that will come in time. Can't wait to be in the Hall. I can't wait to get to four digits. Until than I'll just keep quittin one day at a time with my November pre-HOF winners.
Day 11. I will not use nicotine today.
