what day is this, 5 or 6? All I know is I am so so tired. Waking up multiple times a night to a sweat soaked pillow makes for a long work day. Coffee isn't helping. I don't want to use chew, just wish I could feel normal atm.
Yep...you're doing it right. I love hearing that you feel like shit. No sleep, white knuckle, anxiety, hungry but can't eat...all that shit is GREATNESS!!! EMBRACE IT!!! Really experience it. Take note of everything. This is the suck...and you're handling it.
Also, turn the tables on the Nic Bitch. I used to go sit in the cab of my truck and yell
"I GET to feel this shitty because I CHOSE to be FREE!!!" Neighbors thought I was nuts...maybe I am, too? But you're system is running nic-free for the first time in a long time. Take note of the heroic shit you're doing right now. ONE DAY AT A TIME is all that matters.
You can't change the past...what's done is done...so fuck it. The future isn't here yet...so fuck that too. All you should focus on is what you can control right now. Post roll, keep your word and LIVE FREE!!! You've taken the Nic Bitch's best shots and you're still standing. KEEP IT UP!!!