I'm really nervous about quitting. I'm afraid that my willpower is not strong enough. Every time I try and quit it lasts about 10 min and then the little demon voice inside my head says screw it. Im scared of being miserable. Even though I already am, I scared of being more miserable and shitty to be around. Something has to give because it is running my life and making me a shitty person. I've been addicted to other things and quit , but this can is my last and only friend left, and I'm terrified of how I'm going to get through life without it. Nicotine has been a part of me for 20 years now and over the past couple of years I have succumbed to its intense power and am a full blown slave to it. Please, I need some guidance. :(
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This first step you're making is huge, and scary. I've been exactly where you are and now I'm 142 days quit and it's the absolute best decision I could have made. It will suck at first and it's a fight you'll have to fight every day, but do it one day at a time. Don't worry about getting through the rest of your life without this shit. Worry about today.
This quote from you is the most disturbing - "but this can is my last and only friend left, and I'm terrified of how I'm going to get through life without it."
The can is not your friend. Read this immediately and really think about what it says.
My Best Friend? You need to get pissed off and brace yourself for a fight with this thing that is trying to fucking kill you. You'll find a ton of friends here that will support you every step of the way.
Start getting your mind wrapped around the fact that you absolutely can do this, that no can of shit can make you a slave and start kicking its ass one day at a time.
Get in with the September 2016 group now and start posting your promise every day. YOU CAN DO THIS!