First, welcome.
Next, change your pussy mentality. Stop being passive with your, "I'm scared, can I really do this?" attitude.
Get pissed. Get into a rage. Focus your hate into the very thing that stole or life, health, time, and money and vow every day to stomp the shit out of it by posting roll and then honoring your word.
If you want to quit you can. We have, but it's a hell of a fight every day that takes determination and focus. No time for second guessing, hope, praying, or well wishes. Sack up, dig in, and quit for today, Sally.