Apologizing for venting? Why the eff would you do that? That's what we're here for, brother. I'm just pumped you remembered to come hereBEFORE you caved. Usually, some pussy caves, then comes here the next day all contrite saying that he/she was weak, made a mistake, blah, blah, won't happen again, blah , blah.
You're not caving now because you posted roll today, gave your fucking word to me and everyone else on here, that no matter what the fuck happens today, you will not put nicotine in your body. And you're a man of honor who can be taken at your word. Somebody has to hold the line, and you're the man who's said enough's enough. We're counting on your leadership here!!!
We're depending on you to keep your word, got dammit! I'm serious. The stakes are life or death here.
PS - I suggest you post roll first thing in the morning to that off the table first thing. We're counting on you to show us what determination and resolve look like...