is this forever?!

[SamueL]

JSwiss,

I know how you feel, bro. If you have the time, PLEASE read through my introduction and let it soak in. I went through a veritable hell with anxiety and depression. Long, deep sobbing fits in between all-day anxiety that felt like I was in a constant state of fear. It was awful. But slowly it got better. Yes, there were times of "setback" to where I'd think I was recovered, but then suddenly I'd wake up with my heart pumping adrenaline and I'd be back in the shit for days/weeks. Again, IT GOT BETTER. It took quite some time for me to feel human again on a regular basis, but it happened.

Simply don't give up. Find SOME way to keep yourself occupied during the worst of it. Cry when you must. Scream into a pillow when you must. Go out for walks - all day long if need be - but STAY QUIT! I promise you'll get better just like I did. But whatever you do, for the love of God, don't take your anger out on your family. Let them know you're hurting, but don't hurt them. Come rage here. We will take it.

A lot of guys suggest going to the doc and getting drugs. I chose not to do that. Whatever your choice, just stay quit and try with every bit of energy you have to let yourself heal. It takes time but you will get there.

Proud of you for quitting with us, brother.

[kubiackalpha]

WOOT!! Doing great dude! Keep it up!!!!

[Rawls]

Smells good in here....real good.
Bunch of BA young guns kicking it!
I quit with you.
PM away anytime.
Rawls 506

[Team Quitter]

Being not too many days ahead of you in the quit, I just wanted to toss you a warning with your positivity (which is awesome). Around two weeks ago, life was brilliant for days, despite the cravings and random thoughts of dip...but then I woke up one day and was thick in the fog again and had some bad anxiety to go with a really strong crave or two. That experience was one of the roughest for me. If a day like that hits, get on here and read/rant/chat. If you don't have numbers, get some to make a call (mine are a pm away) when it happens. Forewarned is forearmed, right?

Proud to quit with you today!

[brettlees]

Keep fighting it man, you're winning! crave by crave, trigger by trigger, you teach the addiction that it can't do that to you any more. Sometimes its really hard, but you're doing it! You SHOULD be scared, then use knowledge to combat that fear of caving. The addiction tries all sorts of sneaky tricks-- hence the personfication of it as "nic-bitch"! Learn all you can man, and build the networks-- they really do make the difference!

[jswiss11]

Good advice coming your way here- and some good experience from the quitters above-- follow every word if you can!

It is tough. Read, read, read to learn more if you need to. It helped me alot to read what others went through. Everything i thought was unique, someone else went through.

You can do this, but just get through one day at a time, or one hour at a time, or even ONE MINUTE at a time if that's what it takes. Count each as a victory, and then watch them stack up.

Each crave you beat is one more victory-- one more time you've told the addiction it cant win. You have to be a lot of those at first. Learn a lot about how the addiction works, and it will help you understand and keep fighting.

reach out for help when you need it- you'll get it here! READ, READ, READ bro!

How you doin now JSwiss?

just came back across this thread... damn near forgot about it and still getting used to this forum format. but thank you!! all of you! for your awesome words of encouragement. Thankfully, I haven't caved. Day 24. finally feel like I've broken through some of the emotional shit. man it was rough for a few days there. was REALLY on edge.

feeling more stable and each day is a bit better. One revelation I've had: it appears that my sub-conscious was utilizing anger and frustration as a way for my body to get nic. so now that I recognize that pattern, I can beat it!

still - I think about using every day. part of me is scared that I will start again... just because of the desire. still fightin it though.

cheers fellas.

[brettlees]

Good advice coming your way here- and some good experience from the quitters above-- follow every word if you can!

It is tough. Read, read, read to learn more if you need to. It helped me alot to read what others went through. Everything i thought was unique, someone else went through.

You can do this, but just get through one day at a time, or one hour at a time, or even ONE MINUTE at a time if that's what it takes. Count each as a victory, and then watch them stack up.

Each crave you beat is one more victory-- one more time you've told the addiction it cant win. You have to be a lot of those at first. Learn a lot about how the addiction works, and it will help you understand and keep fighting.

reach out for help when you need it- you'll get it here! READ, READ, READ bro!

How you doin now JSwiss?

[brettlees]

Good advice coming your way here- and some good experience from the quitters above-- follow every word if you can!

It is tough. Read, read, read to learn more if you need to. It helped me alot to read what others went through. Everything i thought was unique, someone else went through.

You can do this, but just get through one day at a time, or one hour at a time, or even ONE MINUTE at a time if that's what it takes. Count each as a victory, and then watch them stack up.

Each crave you beat is one more victory-- one more time you've told the addiction it cant win. You have to be a lot of those at first. Learn a lot about how the addiction works, and it will help you understand and keep fighting.

reach out for help when you need it- you'll get it here! READ, READ, READ bro!

[kubiackalpha]

Hang on man. Keep it up. Drink lots of water. Find something that doesn't remind you or that you used to do with dip for your distraction. You can always lose weight later. There is no real set time on recovery. a general rule is 30 days. It does get better. It will be and is all worth it.

[eyehatecope]

And if you need some inspiration, read the link attached at the bottom of my post. RIP Tom and God bless his family.

[eyehatecope]

Oh the depression, anxiety and all that not so fun stuff.

My advice, see a doctor. No shame there I promise. I was prescribed anxiety meds but, I only used them to help me sleep. Was a pure blessing.

Quit on bud, one day at a time. That's all we can do.

[Cope30]

brand new to the site. not sure where to start. quit on 3/13/16 for real, cold turkey. 17 years I've chewed skoal straight longcut. the first symptoms of withdrawal were flipping terrible, but i got through them I think. now, i'm just concerned that the rest of my life is going to feel like this. I'm depressed. I'm anxious. I'm freaking angry. I want to smash my car into a tree. I argue with my wife and direct my anger at her of all people.

I am gaining weight rapidly because all I do is eat. i have an urge and I follow it, to drink. every night. because what else can I do or look forward to?

how long will this last? honestly. :blink:

Hit the brakes brother, I know it is frustrating and man is it going to be a hell of a ride but your family did not make you stop your addiction you did so take it out on us and love on the family, believe me you will need their support down the road and you don't want to burn bridges or get divorced and all.....
I used that garbage for over 30 years and in time those feeling will pass but first you have to remember we used Nic as a crutch to suppress anger, stress and many other feelings so yes you are going to experience anxiety and other nasty things thr feelings are normal.
Post roll with your July group, exchange some digits cause they can help you stay quit when you need it most.
Good luck, I quit with you today my brother.

[copingwithoutcopen]

Welcome to the party! You're in the suck. It too shall pass. This is the place to read, write and spout off about your quit. Your wife is not the enemy and she didn't make you an addict. These folks know what's it's like and unless she just quit, also, she doesn't understand.

Sugarless gum, exercise, copious amounts of water, fruit, vitamins.

Booze is tough on early quits. It just is. Best to obstain for a while. That's just the honest truth.

There's usually someone in the chat room if things get rough. Get some numbers. Read some more. It's only a day.

Find your group, post roll. Keep your promise for 24 hours.

Repeat.

No more suck.

It's hard to say how long it takes for symptoms to lessen to the point that they don't bother you. I think most folks will agree each day is better then the last. After enough days, they're gone.

The road to freedom is paved with the daily cobblestones of a promise and a little gumption.

[jswiss11]

brand new to the site. not sure where to start. quit on 3/13/16 for real, cold turkey. 17 years I've chewed skoal straight longcut. the first symptoms of withdrawal were flipping terrible, but i got through them I think. now, i'm just concerned that the rest of my life is going to feel like this. I'm depressed. I'm anxious. I'm freaking angry. I want to smash my car into a tree. I argue with my wife and direct my anger at her of all people.

I am gaining weight rapidly because all I do is eat. i have an urge and I follow it, to drink. every night. because what else can I do or look forward to?

how long will this last? honestly. :blink: