It had to be done

[neverShouldaStarted]

After 18 years of addiction and 1 failed attempt I am 8 days quit and feel amazing. Why after the first time trying dip, and puking on the bus ride to the football game, did I become an addict? Why after going to college and trying dip, and puking in the bathroom my first day at school, did I become an addict? I wish I had an answer that makes sense. Why after the years of addiction, without any further puking incidents, did I decide to quit? I have an answer for that. My life is worth far more than my addiction. My wife and children are worth far more to me than an addiction. I will no longer be an addict!

The one thing that changed for me this quit is I am literally disgusted with myself. I finally realized 8 EFFIN YEARS. I kept having it in my head that I only been doin this for a year or 2. Next thing I know its 8 damn years and I am disgusted with myself I kept it up this long. 12 days and doin fine after never getting past 1 day before.

[Radman]

Like Loot pointed out. We are never cured. NEVER. What that actualy means is that we can never for a minute let our guard down. We have to be always mindful of the tricks. We can never have "just one", because there is no such thing for addicts. That's the mindset shift we have to accept to make this battle winnable. Posting roll helps with that. Accountability helps with that. Both are found here.

Never again...... for any reason.

Glad you're here. Reach out if you need help or contacts.

[RAZD611]

Correction noted.Ã,  I will not be an active addict!

And you will always be one....life sentence you dealt yourself.

You got this thing bro.

What you won't be anymore is a statistic...

Sac up and lets go.

[loot]

Correction noted. I will not be an active addict!

And you will always be one....life sentence you dealt yourself.

You got this thing bro.

[Kjstout]

Correction noted. I will not be an active addict!

[Wt57]

your are well on your way just continue posting roll and drinking deep of the quit koolaid and you will continue succeeding.

[loot]

After 18 years of addiction and 1 failed attempt I am 8 days quit and feel amazing. Why after the first time trying dip, and puking on the bus ride to the football game, did I become an addict? Why after going to college and trying dip, and puking in the bathroom my first day at school, did I become an addict? I wish I had an answer that makes sense. Why after the years of addiction, without any further puking incidents, did I decide to quit? I have an answer for that. My life is worth far more than my addiction. My wife and children are worth far more to me than an addiction. I will no longer be an addict!

Nope. You dont gotta be an ACTiVE addict..but make no mistake. Your ass will always be an addict. You are just choosing to be a recovering addict. Its OK to bud, yous in damned fine company. Ol LOOT just happens to be a recovering addict too! Cept LOOT posts Roll Call everyday. This you shall do too.

Welcome to the site.

[Kjstout]

After 18 years of addiction and 1 failed attempt I am 8 days quit and feel amazing. Why after the first time trying dip, and puking on the bus ride to the football game, did I become an addict? Why after going to college and trying dip, and puking in the bathroom my first day at school, did I become an addict? I wish I had an answer that makes sense. Why after the years of addiction, without any further puking incidents, did I decide to quit? I have an answer for that. My life is worth far more than my addiction. My wife and children are worth far more to me than an addiction. I will no longer be an addict!