@Goat45 yesterday you were 19 days into your quit. Are you 20 days today, or did you cave? Didn't see your name posted on the March 2021 roster today, dude. Come on. Make the move that will help save your life.
Dude, I completely get the swings you're having right now. About a month into my quit, my fog and rages were epic (and I already have a quick temper). I hit the button on my Keurig one morning and watched it piss coffee all over the counter and the floor because I forgot to put a damn cup under the spout. And I lost my shit with myself, angry that I couldn't think straight. But it passed, and it was okay. There were days I thought my head would explode. There were days where I about couldn't think straight enough to pull up my damn drawers. It all passes, though, and that feeling - the feeling of BEING QUIT - supersedes everything else. Just ride the lightning right now. You'll come out the other side a better man.
One of the best things you can do if you're still quit today - or fuck it, even if you're back on a Day 1 - is get your girlfriend involved. Show her the stuff on here. She needs to know what to expect just like you do. I showed my wife this site right after I joined, and it helped us both. It's still helping me almost 300 days later.
If you made it 19 days, you can make it 20 days. That's how we roll here - ODAAT (One Day At A Time). If you want to stay quit, you will - not for your GF, not for your parents, not for anyone else BUT YOU. Reach out if you need to. PM me, and I'll send you my digits, brother. Now get your ass back here and post your promise in March 2021.