Just poked through most of this thread... I really appreciate you venting and documenting your quit here.
I'm at day 105, and I'm blown away that I'm not pretty much back to 100%. But I guess it makes me feel better (and worse) that many people struggle with mental and physical symptoms for a LONG time. But we used nic for a long time, so we cant expect things to be back to normal after a few months.
I haven't had any major symptoms, but just general junkiness. It comes and goes in intensity. Mostly just low, tired depressed with odd mouth/jaw feelings and minor headaches. It just wears on you.
How are you feeling nowadays?
@Thefranks5 can attest to his own experience, but I still have those days and I'm in the 180s. They're fewer and farther between but I still have "bad days". I have learned just to take the days as they come.
Thank you for digging up my thread and glad I could be of help
@Addictx3 Well my journey is good but just like
@macattack said there are good days and bad days. My reflux I can keep under control but do get stupid and over do it at times. My gut issues started in April when I changed jobs so I took on more responsibility, more physical labor and much more to learn. I am not sure if it is IBS, gall bladder or something else but it has really settled down as the stress level has too. I have found that my anxiety issues do cause even more gut issues so I am trying to not get to worked up anymore because when I do it throws my gut for a loop. I have a major hip issue that needs attention soon so that gets anxiety up and we start all over again. I am learning what triggers my gut issues and am able to stop some triggers.
Overall my health is good but frustrates me because I also was thinking by 481 days in I would be feeling really good. But it goes to show ya how much damage we have done.
We are addicts and that is something that we need to profess.
Yes, I still have the desire to chew. Yes, I miss the taste and texture. Yes, I miss the comfort feeling it gave me for 30 plus years. Yes, I say all the time that my health was better when I chewed.
Now, I said that because I am being honest. I am an addict and always will be. My brain still has that desire and at the same time has the strength to say no. I still use fake because of that comfort feeling when my lip is packed. I still get the jitters when I don’t have my fake. I still feel like I had lost an old friend and I am in mourning. When something has been with you that long it is part of you so yes it feels like I am in mourning. I pray everyday that I will stay quit and that all addicts will find their freedom from their addiction. I have tasted freedom but my addict brain still won’t let go. I envy and am jealous of those that can just walk away and thats it. No craves, no jitters, no mourning and no major health issues. But we are all different and the Good Lord made us that way for a reason. Without him I would never have made it this far. Without him I never would have found the strength to fight and keep fighting. Without him I never would have found a wife who loves me and supported my quit while having absolutely no clue what I was going thru. I am an addict who will be a tobacco quitter until the day the Lord calls me home. I am far from being out of the woods and everyday it gets better. Stay the course and stay quit my friend. Reach out to the Lord for help and all the great supporters here at KTC. I need all of you in my life to keep me clean and I am proud and honored to be in yours helping you stay clean. When you help others you actually are helping yourself. I have strengthened my quit by reaching out to others and helping them. My digits are yours fellas just ask in a pm and I will promise you everyday that I will stay tobacco free. Sorry it might be hard to read but yes I ramble and lose track of where I am going when typing but I am quit and blessed by the Lord for it. Stay safe, stay quit and God Bless.
Doug
Oh yeah if you decide to cave always smash your jewels in a drawer first. I would rather have my jewels swell up then put a dead plant in my lip that could kill me. Rip Ken. Tobacco killed you but your legacy will carry on.
