I lay in my bed, eyes half closed
Wheezing and sighingÂ….is this how it goes?
It hurts to breathe in, I cough all the time,
But not like you, blood comes with mine.
Goddamnit, I want a cigarette so bad
I can taste the smoke stillÂ…..I start to get sad.
They were with me so long, while weakÂ…or strong
They stayed with me longer then people IÂ’d known.
They were always around, like a very close friend,
How ironic it is that they caused my end.
WhoÂ’s that coming in? My wife, my son?
NoÂ….go awayÂ….this is not how itÂ’s doneÂ….
Daddy, I love youÂ…..will you be around
To see me walk in my graduation gown?
Or go to the movies or swim at the beach,
You always told me youÂ’d be within reach!
My wife, my sonÂ….I wonÂ’t be around.
IÂ’m 30 years old and let you both down.
I lay in my bed, eyes totally closed.
I draw my last breathÂ….this IS how it goes.
SoÂ….IÂ’m a nicotine addict. Always will be. IÂ’m a smoker but my close friend BBJ directed me to this site when I told him I was very serious about quitting. He said it didnÂ’t matter that IÂ’d never dippedÂ…..nicotine is nicotine. He and all of you saved my life. And IÂ’m forever grateful for and humbled by that.
All of you Brothers, HOFÂ’ers, and NEWBIES, STICK WITH THE POSTING EVERY DAY!!!!!! There were days I didnÂ’t feel like posting but I did it anyway. And whenever I got the urge to light up, somehow, this little pledgeÂ…..this little groupÂ…..this little KTC site would creep back into my head and yellÂ…..WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING!!!! You can quit. You can. Do it for yourself. Do it for your wife, your mom, your dad, your kidsÂ…Â…but do it for YOURSELF!!!!! The sense of strength and pride I have for making it to day 100 is something I never thought IÂ’d feel. And this is just the beginning...(don't forget that)
And now IÂ’m never gonna be the guy I wrote the poem about. No way. When I dieÂ…Â…IÂ’m gonna die healthy. And so will you.
Thank you....ALL of you....for my life.
Steve (scrap77) Berlen
OK BBJ.....Let's go for a REAL mt. bike ride now!! :)
