First off i would like to introduce myself as 15. I didn't really take into account how long I have been dipping until today in a chat room. "How long have you dipped?" It just sank in my gut that I started at the age of 19, and I recently turned 34. It was eye opening to say the least. I have quit in the past, and made it to about 6 months before caving after drinking. I keep trying to quit here and there, making 3, 4,5 10 days. I really don't want to get to the point that I reconcile with myself that Nicotine won. Am I ever going to beat this? It feels like a losing war, the withdrawal symptoms this time after 3 days nicotine free have been the worst. Insomnia has been a killer, with the lack of sleep it has allowed me to think in the middle of the night. The "fog" tells me there will never be a time in my life without a can.
I am just trying to survive one day at a time, it just seems like they get harder instead of easier lately. Good luck HOF March 2018. I am trying to hang in there.