TO ALL FUTURE READERS OF MY INITIAL POST:
Please feel free to give encouragement, but don't pick apart my words and somehow use a dimestore psycology degree to figure me out.
If I have to worry and stress about choosing the correct words when posting on this site, it is going to magnify the difficulty of doing this.
I am doing this because I want to. I also am doing this to save about 300 bucks a month. I am doing this because I don't want to die. I don't need someone criticizing my words and telling me why I was a failure in the past. I do need someone to encourage my current and future success.
please don't take this personally, I am understandably a little on edge, it is day one....
Yup...dimestore psychology coming your way.
Unfortunately the site lives in a virtual reality. There are some recent additions claiming this is "just the internet, not real". If it wasn't real, you wouldn't be reading this.
Cause and effect. You read the word, you have a thought. So language is incredibly important both in a unified message as well as keeping an addict on the path. I often think to myself "What if the word 'cave' just didn't exist? That the notion of stopping something and restarting something you don't want to do...just didn't exist." Hard to erase someone's memories over the internet (as of today...but I'm working on it). So when someone dissects your grammar or vocabulary they're doing it as much for their benefit as yours. I describe it as a 'community with unified conviction'. The conviction being our common disdain for nicotine, its effects on us both intrapersonal and inter-personally and physically.
If you read over and over that 'cave' is an option on your path, you have weakened your chances of success. If you subscribe to the world that 'there is no cave' and really invest in that reality, your chances of success increase.
Hence, here we are. It comes down to a gigantic battle within yourself. You alone will be left with your thoughts. You can arrange them in a manner that narrows your path such that you have a limited number of destinations (quit) or you can leave the path a little wider and more accepting and allow for other destinations(cave). You can reach out, you can come over to my house and I can lock you in a closet when you are craving. That I can do for you but I only offer that to my immediate quit brothers in March 2011 (sorry). When it comes down to it, you will have to fight a battle at some point on your own. All we're doing is getting you prepared as best we can.
PS. I subscribe to this methodology so I'm biased but its wrapped up I believe in this:
NLP
