Just a week or so ago I was battling huge cravings. Now I feel as if I've conquered it. It shows you the true danger of getting complacent. All it takes is a couple moments of complacency and then BAM you have potential for a cave. The bottom line is, you can always see the temptation; slowly but surely poking its ugly head out at you. Whereas it may have not shown itself in three months or three years, all of the sudden, or sometimes slowly through a series of events, it tempts and claws at you once again, reminding you it is still there. It hopes that you will be the slave that you once were. It reminds you of how easy you were able to live without it just so it can suck you into its vicious cycle all over again! Such is the nature of the beast of addiction. It never truly goes away, it only masks and manifests itself in other forms. I would be a complete fool to think of myself as successful at this point. 143 days in really is a short amount of time. I can only imagine what it will be like once I get to the level some of the folks here on KTC are... in the thousands. Yet still posting roll every single day so passionately as they did early on. It is truly inspiring. It reminds me of when a fellow quit brother asked me the question, "Do you really want to quit?" as opposed to, "Do you think you should quit?" It is truly a difference when you want to quit.
And so I ask myself the question, which I would also ask you, "How bad do you want to quit?"
I like to think I want it very badly. But at the same time, if I can't even post roll on time, how bad do I really want it?
It is urgent and absolutely vital that I post roll on time. I am thankful for my quit brothers in helping me to not lose sight on the goal!
