Welcome Adam!
First things first. I suggest you head over to
Feb 2016 and post roll with those guys. Posting roll is your promise not to use nicotine in any shape, manner or form today. Once you make your promise, keep your promise. If you can do these simple steps for 24 hours at a time, you can't fail.
Which brings me to the next point. We don't do forever here. I'm glad you're fired up and that you're telling yourself that you never want to go back to it. BUT, you can only control one day at a time (ODAAT). You can't do anything about what happened yesterday, and you can't change tomorrow before it gets here. It's a carpe diem kind of thing. Seize today.
The fog. You're "nic raging" right now when you fly off the handle for no reason. Don't do that to your family. Come here and rage all you want to. We can take it. Your family didn't do this to you, and they shouldn't have to suffer the consequences either. The nic rage will pass. The fog comes and goes as well. None of this will kill you, and none of it is worse than fighting for your life after cancer or a heart attack.
Finally, the fake. I didn't use it for precisely the reason you have given. However, I would say 75% or so of the quitters on here use it, especially in the beginning. I chewed enough seeds, gum, and jolly ranchers in the first couple weeks to feed a small country. To each their own in this regard. If you think it will be too much like the real thing don't use it. If you feel like it'll take the edge off a wicked crave to be able to pop something similar in, then use it. It's a personal preference.
Again, welcome. Get over and post roll and introduce yourself to your February brethren. They will welcome you with open arms and you will begin to experience why this site works: Accountability + Brotherhood = Success
