Welcome man. A couple of things. We don't "hope" here. We DO. We don't "start small" We dive into our quits balls deep. You hang on because today is going to be a ride from hell but YOU CAN DO THIS. Drink a ton of water, grab some seeds, gum anything except nicotine. Stay on KTC as much as you possibly can, yell, punch do what you have to do to stay quit (everything legally of course) Join in your quit group for help with the withdrawals you're having.
Do not put anymore shit into your lip!