This was almost chilling to read, WVC. We have a few similarities.
I'm 13 years younger than you, but I was very much in the same boat. In fact, speaking of crowns, I'm currently sitting here with half a front tooth in my head, waiting for my appointment to get a crown prep done on that tooth so a crown can be placed. I've never been so happy for an upcoming dentist appointment in my life so I can get back to smiling. Needless to say, tobacco, and my current dental situation has also put a damper on the ol' dating life.
But the important thing to take away from this is I'm rebuilding, and I know you can too. (Actually, this crown is the last thing I need done!) I'm glad to see you've been quit for a while on your own. I joined and remain at this site because every day we post roll call. That's a promise to the others on this site that you won't use nicotine in any form for the day. See, like you, I found it to be easy to lie to myself. "You can have just one..." However, I can't lie to the people here whom I've made friends with. Therefore, I find the accountability here to be huge.
Give it a shot, man!