I get so freaking happy about because I got to put a big fat wad in. That part is what worries me because the normal joy that I have been getting from that will now by void and I hope it is not filled with anger and rage. I mean I don't remember what it was like not being addicted to this shit. I mean who can just ride in the car without doing anything? What will I do? Just drive? Or working in the garage or yard? I love that stuff but do I love it because I had a dip in the whole time or because I actually like doing the work. Is this something others of you out there have dealt with? How'd you over come it? Chewing gum or sun flower seeds help but as soon as they are out of my mouth I am reaching in that back pocket for my can.
Spoken like a true addict! My mother before she died of emphysema used to say that cigarettes were her best friend. She would rather hang out with them than anyone else. And then her best friend killed her.
You get happy when you have this shit in your mouth because it alleviates the withdrawal symptoms when your blood nicotine levels drop low enough.
I can sit in a car without having a dip in my mouth, for hours. I can work in the house, take long bike rides, read long hours in bed, without dip in. I used tobacco much longer then you. So you have some rage and anxiety for a few days, so fucking what?
Bottom line, you can do this, one day at a time. 4 days and the nicotine is out of your system, and then it is just the oral habit, and learning how to deal with anxiety in a healthy way. Post roll every day, so you don't do it all alone.
