28 years of hell - 3 days of living

[Doofus]

Poof

[Doofus]

Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf

[Doofus]

Double WUPP time for 200, proud to be quit wit u

[Skolvikings]

Congratulations on the 2nd floor brother, you are a rock in April and we all enjoy the Helicopter.

Proud to quit with you, on to 300!!!!!!!!!

[Athan]

SWINGIN' MATTTTTTTTT!!
Been a while since I bumped you on roll. The milestones sure are cool. While not the HOF, the quiet thrill of 150 was there nevertheless. I remember 75. I remember my feet not touching the ground between 90 and the hundy. I remember feeling very sexy posting a 101.
My sleep clock is still rolled back. Going to bed a lot earlier and waking up a lot earlier. Looking forward to posting the 200 with you at 05:00.

[mattttt25]

Holy shit. I can't believe I haven't updated this sooner. Last post was at 50 days. I now stand at 172.

So what's happened in the past 122 days? Well, I hit the magical HOF. Great milestone that makes you really feel you belong here and have accomplished something big. Please check out my HOF speech when you get a chance.

My sleeping still sucks. I continue to wake up in the middle of the night or very early. Yes, even at day 172. Mind wandering, sometimes I fall back to sleep and other times I'm up for the day. But it has gotten better. I do make it through the night sometimes now. So I look forward to continuing to improve in this area.

Still using the fake stuff. But slowly getting better there as well. Always have a can at work and at home, but don't always use it. Usually reserved for when I'm drinking. Have gone days without it, so that's a positive thing. Mostly just an oral fixation thing, and something I'm slowly breaking.

And still at 100% for posting roll. I consider that a pretty important thing.

One thing to add- I started having minor panic attacks around day 80 and they lasted up to day 150. Not 100% sure it was related to my quit, but I wouldn't be surprised. I think they've gone away at this point, but wanted to throw that out there in case others experience the same thing.

That's all. Sorry for not keeping this updated. If I can help anyone starting out on this journey, please let me know. Quit on-

[mattttt25]

Day 50 of my quit. Feels odd to have made it this far, time really has flown by. My quit is going great. No real urges to use. I still use the fake stuff from time to time, but I've never felt tempted to buy the real stuff. I'm also working out daily, and it's really improved how I feel. I'm sure it has helped my quit as well.

My only problem is sleep. I still can't sleep through the night. I go to bed early most nights and wake up at least once, usually smack in the middle of the night. I can lay awake for an hour or two before falling back to sleep for a few hours. Then up early. Surprisingly, I'm not tired throughout the day. But I know it's not the healthiest thing, so I hope I eventually get my sleep patterns back to normal.

I can't believe it took me this long to quit. I hope anyone reading this and considering a quit just does it. You get through the first few days and then just keep adding days. Quit each day, pot roll each day. Whether you're active on the forum or not, make sure you visit at least once a day to make the promise to stay quit. It does work.

Off to do another 50 days....

[mattttt25]

Day 37. Just checking in to say my sleep patterns suck. Everything else about my Quit is going great. Quit remains strong and I post roll every day early. But my sleep still sucks. Wake up throughout the night almost every night. I'll deal with it, and trust that it will get better.

[Stranger999]

Day 24...

Last Friday, I was going to a hockey game with a few friends. Knew I'd be drinking and wanted to make sure I had some fake stuff. I had ordered online and it was scheduled to arrive Thursday. Didn't arrive. Friday, I head home at lunch to check mail. Still not there. I swing by post office on way back to office, not there either. I get home after work, and definitely not there. Shit. I start looking online for what Walmart carries. 30 minutes spent to realize the closest Walmart that carries fake shit is 30 min away and it's not really what I want. I'm now panicking. I actually feel like I used to when I couldn't get my hands on real dip. Remember that feeling? We all do. Anyway, on the way to the game, I grabbed some seeds. Calmed me down. Funny thing is, those seeds sat in my pocket the entire time (not a seed person). But they helped me get over the mental panic, just knowing I had something as a substitute. Crazy, weird crave. Never really thought of the real stuff, but scared me when it was all over.

Some awesome news- went to the Dentist yesterday. Walked in like my avatar, announcing to the techs and dentists that I was 23 days Quit. They were all very proud and supportive. Got an extra deep cleaning, and the dentist checked me over and said things look good. Told her I plan to stay quit and got a high five.

You're still early in your quit but trust me, the wins will start adding up. You can do this without fake dip. 24 days is damn impressive! I quit with you today! Stranger999 day 875.

[mattttt25]

Day 24...

Last Friday, I was going to a hockey game with a few friends. Knew I'd be drinking and wanted to make sure I had some fake stuff. I had ordered online and it was scheduled to arrive Thursday. Didn't arrive. Friday, I head home at lunch to check mail. Still not there. I swing by post office on way back to office, not there either. I get home after work, and definitely not there. Shit. I start looking online for what Walmart carries. 30 minutes spent to realize the closest Walmart that carries fake shit is 30 min away and it's not really what I want. I'm now panicking. I actually feel like I used to when I couldn't get my hands on real dip. Remember that feeling? We all do. Anyway, on the way to the game, I grabbed some seeds. Calmed me down. Funny thing is, those seeds sat in my pocket the entire time (not a seed person). But they helped me get over the mental panic, just knowing I had something as a substitute. Crazy, weird crave. Never really thought of the real stuff, but scared me when it was all over.

Some awesome news- went to the Dentist yesterday. Walked in like my avatar, announcing to the techs and dentists that I was 23 days Quit. They were all very proud and supportive. Got an extra deep cleaning, and the dentist checked me over and said things look good. Told her I plan to stay quit and got a high five.

[mattttt25]

Thanks fellas. Last night, I had my first cigarette dream. And I've never smoked before. Crazy shit.

Day 14. Keeping the quit strong.

[Stranger999]

Day 11 - have had few withdraw symptoms. But had my first dip dream last night. That was weird. Actually thought it was made up when I first read about it on this site. But no, they are legit. Quite boring, I was coming from my bedroom upstairs and walking down the steps. Suddenly realized I had a lipper in. WTF. I got really nervous and the first thing I thought about was how IÂ’d explain this on KTC. Quickly woke up. For a brief moment, wasnÂ’t sure if it was real or not. Thank god it was just a dream. Stay strong Quitters.

It's all part of the process. This is the time to hunker down and involve yourself in life. As addicts, we seek habit. If you have not found an outlet for the times when you used to dip, the nic bitch will keep whispering in your ear, breaking down your resolve. Become addicted to your new found freedom and reinvest in those who have spent so much time watching you jam shit in your lip trying to slowly kill yourself in front of them. Get your contacts, put together a plan for when you will be weak, do not ever become complacent in your quit.

Keep adding days. I'm over 800 days in and I still get the odd dipping or smoking dream. Nicotine wires our brains to expect more nicotine. All I can tell you is what folks told me when I was on day 11 - it does get better, one day at a time. The key is to never forget that you are an addict like me. Posting here every day is a great way not to forget and building a quit chain with other members can help ensure your quit.

Proud to quit with you today! Stranger999 day 862

[eric71]

Day 11 - have had few withdraw symptoms. But had my first dip dream last night. That was weird. Actually thought it was made up when I first read about it on this site. But no, they are legit. Quite boring, I was coming from my bedroom upstairs and walking down the steps. Suddenly realized I had a lipper in. WTF. I got really nervous and the first thing I thought about was how IÂ’d explain this on KTC. Quickly woke up. For a brief moment, wasnÂ’t sure if it was real or not. Thank god it was just a dream. Stay strong Quitters.

It's all part of the process. This is the time to hunker down and involve yourself in life. As addicts, we seek habit. If you have not found an outlet for the times when you used to dip, the nic bitch will keep whispering in your ear, breaking down your resolve. Become addicted to your new found freedom and reinvest in those who have spent so much time watching you jam shit in your lip trying to slowly kill yourself in front of them. Get your contacts, put together a plan for when you will be weak, do not ever become complacent in your quit.

[mattttt25]

Day 11 - have had few withdraw symptoms. But had my first dip dream last night. That was weird. Actually thought it was made up when I first read about it on this site. But no, they are legit. Quite boring, I was coming from my bedroom upstairs and walking down the steps. Suddenly realized I had a lipper in. WTF. I got really nervous and the first thing I thought about was how IÂ’d explain this on KTC. Quickly woke up. For a brief moment, wasnÂ’t sure if it was real or not. Thank god it was just a dream. Stay strong Quitters.

[mattttt25]

Damn right Rawls!

170 hours nicotine free. Officially over one week of not using. Hey Skoal, go fuck yourself. Hey U.S. Tobacco Company, you didn't get my $30 this past week, how does it feel?