KillTheCan has helped guide me through my previous "quits" over the last few years, but I never felt it necessary to join the forums, always convincing myself I had the willpower to quit forever on my own.
Well I was wrong, and here I am; forever this time.
For starters, my name is Cody, and I'm a 22 year old college student at the University of Oklahoma.
I've been a dipper since the ripe ol' age of 15, where my 2 best buddies and I were introduced to Copenhagen in our high school dugout. What began as sharing a can and "never letting each other get addicted" turned into a 7 year habit that's latched onto part of my soul.
Luckily for my 2 friends, they were able to kick the habit when we all 3 "quit" before heading off to college. What scares me though is 4 years later they still miss it more than anything, and I'm still dipping like it's goin out of style.
The sickening part about my situation is that I'm no stranger to the dreaded the "C" word, and I'm not talking about my GF, I'm talking' about cancer. After having parts of my body removed and 3 long months of chemotherapy at 17 due to germ-cell tumors, I still can't quit. I used to sneak down to the mcdonalds in the bottom of the hospital, still connected to machines and all, just to throw in a lip.
It was easy to lie to myself that I would quit when I was older then, but I'm getting older everyday and still saying the same thing.
Well I graduate next week and start a new chapter of my life back in Houston with my beautfiul gf, and this time I'm not taking my habit back with me.
Unfortunately, I won't be quitting until next week either, but I felt the need to post this now to give it a sense of reality and start preparing myself mentally. The only reason for the wait is that I'm studying and about to take my last set of college finals, and I'm all too familiar with the hell of quitting cold turkey. I at least need to be able to think straight this week.
I also wanted to ask a few things before I begin this battle:
1. What do I need to do or who do I need to see to have my mouth, throat, and everywhere in-between examined? I'm an idiot and have never done this before, and I know I need to with my history and the abuse my cheeks and gums have seen.
2. Do you have any advice on which herbal snuff I should try out? The last two times I quit I used smokey mountain because they have it at the local wal-mart, and both straight and wintergreen made me nauseous. Gum and seeds work alright, but I just need that oral fixation on my gums.
3. Everytime I've quit I constantly bite my tounge. I know this can't be good, but I can't stop. Anyone else had this or know something that helps? I even do it while I have in gum or seeds.
I guess that's about it, but I look forward to getting involved and finally kicking the can for good.
And if for any reason I don't check back in, I feel like I've given you guys enough personal info to please come hunt me down and beat the dip out of my mouth.
Let's get er done 'Remshot'
