Jimmy, I just posted this in "2score and 2's" intro thread. It applies to you too. Read the successes on this site, be part of the solution.
I'm glad to be quit with you today, Jimmy. 20 years is plenty long enough, wouldn't you say? Me? I'm 25 years and now 232 days into the freedom. You'll be amazed how nice it is to not think about your can; hiding it, do I have enough, etc. What a bunch of crap that was letting it control me. Tired of lying to yourself, feeling like a failure because you couldnt quit, being controlled? That's no way for a man to live! Be a man. Be a man and free yourself.
Are you man enough?
I'm quit with you!!
Leahy, day 232