So I went out drinking this evening/tonightÂ… I was worried about going out because I was concerned I would end up getting drunk and then craving the Nic and hunting it downÂ…
Honestly, I craved the Nic Bitch on about six different occasions throughout the night tonightÂ… And all six times, I took myself out the situation and had a little talk with myselfÂ… "Is it really worth running across the street for chew? You only want it because you're drunkÂ… You won't be able to post roll tomorrow for your 4th day if you dip nowÂ… You're already feeling the fog and feeling the suck from being three days in, is it really worth starting over again because you're drinking and have the crave?"
I'm at home now, by myselfÂ… With a big fat dip of Tobacco/Nicotine Free Smokey Mountain in while I write thisÂ… I feels great knowing I came over the obstacle of buying a can of chew because it was convenient and I was drunkenly craving itÂ…. I can't wait to post roll for my Day 4 tomorrow.