Well, here I am. I hope I am welcome here as a snuser and not a dipper. I have been handcuffed by this shit for 8 years now. It started off with the excitement of the spins, and it finally ended 11/03/2014 when I finally put my foot down and said I didn't want to be prisoner to this shit anymore.
I think I have really made it through the most difficult days, but I know they were hell. I came across this website and thought, damn, it would have been nice to have some support through those first few days... and it can't help having some over the next 96 days and beyond. So although I feel like the worst is done for me, I know it's a long road still and I know I can hopefully help a few other people out here and get them over the curb.
Here's a little back story of where I came from concerning nicotine:
I started out when Camel was releasing their first "snus" type of tobacco. My parents bought some because they were going on a longer flight, so I was over at the house one evening, saw a pack there, and figured I would try one out. I was 19 years old (seriously, gotta be kidding right? I make it 19 years without getting addicted to this shit... and then I gave in). From there I did some general research online, found out that Camel sucks; however, there are a lot of great brands over in Sweden.
I look up the health warnings... humm... it's not bad for you? Even medical websites say it's not as bad as smoking or dip. Fuckin fantastic! I think I'l try some different kinds out. So I ordered a few rolls online, got them shipped overseas for cheap. Hell a roll would cost about $10-$15 and shipping was $10 total on 2 or 3 rolls. In no time at all, I was full on addicted. I don't know if I was addicted toward the nicotine right away, but I was certainly addicted at trying the different flavors out and the joy of when I got that shit in the mail. I went on a few forums about snus and talked to the guys, even have some Monte Cristo stuff sent to me. Life was great.
Then you discover the higher nicotine pouches.... then you discover you can get someeeee spins if you take 2 at a time, etc etc etc. Then finally it hits you... life is only great when you have some snus. Not so much when you don't. The USPS made shipping illegal, so now you have to ship FedEx or UPS which raised the shipping costs from $10 to $40... almost reason enough to quit... and then those fuckers over at General start selling nationwide in the US. Any thought I had of quitting was erased.
Well... it's time. 8 years later, I need to kick this. My fiance has quit smoking on 11/03, and I said, "There's no better time than right now." I thought about it a couple other times and said to myself, "Well I'll finish this roll." or "Ill finish this can and stop". But that never really worked well for me... so finally I decided, there is no better day than today. Fact is, health research or not - the stuff is not good for you. It's addicting and it ruins your fucking mind. You no longer want it, you depend on it.
The first few days have been hell; today is the first day where things have settled down. I'm pumped to go through the rest of this process, and I hope I can help out a few people like myself.
