Day one... my quit, it's time for a change

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Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: Thewolfe
Quote from: bbuglerI fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Am I missing something? I don't think we ever got question #3 answered.
missing roll call and posting later and later in the day with your promise does not inspire a quitter who is making this a priority in their life. 'bang head'


How serious are you taking this quit?
Hof date may 25, 2013
HoF Speech


The poison sucks. I hate it. I hated it this morning, I hated it at noon, I hated it at supper and I hate it tonight. I enjoy hating it so much I'm going to wake up tomorrow and start over hating it. I quit with anyone that wants to hate it with me.

cbird65

Quote from: Thewolfe
Quote from: bbuglerI fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Am I missing something? I don't think we ever got question #3 answered.
missing roll call and posting later and later in the day with your promise does not inspire a quitter who is making this a priority in their life. 'bang head'
Believe Me

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Done4Me

bbugler - You out there? Should be posting roll as day 18.

Edit:See that you posted roll, thx.

thewolfe

Quote from: bbuglerI fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Am I missing something? I don't think we ever got question #3 answered.

Thumblewort

Everything that is posted about Days 1 - 3 is true and then some, hence the phrase "embrace the suck".

Day 1 and 2 were work days for me, so I was fortunate enough to be able to close my door and work while mentally I wanted to scream because the anxiety was so bad. Day 3 was a Sunday, and it was a 16 physical withdrawal day, headaches, stomach cramps and zero energy, basically the flu without being sick. And I will never have to go through that shit again as long as I quit today, wake up tomorrow and quit again.

Get through day 3 or 4 , and your eye will be open to a life of quit. I hope you can make the right choice.
Some of my fondest and clearest memories are peeing in places that aren't bathrooms.

J2b

Quote from: bbugler
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: bbuglerI fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Dude.

This place isn't for "tries". We don't "attempt". We don't do
"Our best". We quit here.

We wake up. We put our name on a roll call every day first thing. And we keep our word. In the process, we make friends. And we do not let ourselves or our friends down. Ever.

I spent 45k feeding my "habit". This is serious business dude. If you aren't ready to have balls the size of Montana and give your word (a word that we can trust) then go back and hit the can again buddy. US Tobacco Inc has a lot of bills to pay and I'm sure they would appreciate your business. Then you can come back in 2035 (I think you would be about my current age then) and finally quit. Or you can be less of a dumb fuck than I was and quit now.

If you are serious this time, know that this community is a strong chain of quit and we do not have weak links. If you are gonna let your brothers down again, stop wasting everyone's time. If you are serious, accept the harsh words headed your way and prove that your word is worthy of everyone's trust.

Don't wait til 2035...
I'm done trying. I'm quit now. Night one (again). Prepping for a tough one. but it will be worth it in the end.
ave you watched the Kern story in words of wisdom? Go read it then come back and tell us how hard tonight will be.

Next time you have sleep issues, work out, read a book, write, do something. Herbal tea - sleepytime or extra sleepytime w/ ecinachea. Point is - do something else
The problem is not the problem.  The problem is your attitude about the problem.  Do you understand?

Draw Fire

If its too much trouble to post roll call, you could always fuck off.

Quit Group: May 11 3 Balled Quitters

  • Quit: 01/23/11

mich 34

make some friends in your quit group, it's much tougher to just say "fuck it" when you're leaning on the same guys that are leaning on you for support. Again - you MUST want this or it'll never take, quitting is just too damn hard to half ass your way through. The good news is that it it possible, we're all proof of that. how man phone numbers do you have? have you asked anyone for their number yet, have you given your number to anyone? that adds another layer of accountability - I know it sounds odd but it's true.
my intro
QD 07-19-2012
Group - Roctober Madmen Post with some Madmen (and women)
HOF 10-27-12 HOF Speech
2nd Floor 2-4-13, 3rd Floor 5-15-13
1 year of freedom - 7-19-2013. Thank you KTC
4th Floor 8-23-13, 5th Floor 12-1-13, 6th Floor 3-11-14, 7th Floor 6-19-14, 8th Floor 9-27-14, 9th Floor 1-5-15

bbugler

Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: bbuglerI fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Dude.

This place isn't for "tries". We don't "attempt". We don't do
"Our best". We quit here.

We wake up. We put our name on a roll call every day first thing. And we keep our word. In the process, we make friends. And we do not let ourselves or our friends down. Ever.

I spent 45k feeding my "habit". This is serious business dude. If you aren't ready to have balls the size of Montana and give your word (a word that we can trust) then go back and hit the can again buddy. US Tobacco Inc has a lot of bills to pay and I'm sure they would appreciate your business. Then you can come back in 2035 (I think you would be about my current age then) and finally quit. Or you can be less of a dumb fuck than I was and quit now.

If you are serious this time, know that this community is a strong chain of quit and we do not have weak links. If you are gonna let your brothers down again, stop wasting everyone's time. If you are serious, accept the harsh words headed your way and prove that your word is worthy of everyone's trust.

Don't wait til 2035...
I'm done trying. I'm quit now. Night one (again). Prepping for a tough one. but it will be worth it in the end.
Quit Day: 5/7/14.

Quit fucking sucks. So does Cancer

rdad

Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: bbuglerI fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Dude.

This place isn't for "tries". We don't "attempt". We don't do
"Our best". We quit here.

We wake up. We put our name on a roll call every day first thing. And we keep our word. In the process, we make friends. And we do not let ourselves or our friends down. Ever.

I spent 45k feeding my "habit". This is serious business dude. If you aren't ready to have balls the size of Montana and give your word (a word that we can trust) then go back and hit the can again buddy. US Tobacco Inc has a lot of bills to pay and I'm sure they would appreciate your business. Then you can come back in 2035 (I think you would be about my current age then) and finally quit. Or you can be less of a dumb fuck than I was and quit now.

If you are serious this time, know that this community is a strong chain of quit and we do not have weak links. If you are gonna let your brothers down again, stop wasting everyone's time. If you are serious, accept the harsh words headed your way and prove that your word is worthy of everyone's trust.

Don't wait til 2035...
You spent 45k feeding your addiction WtW? What a loser! I only spent 39k!

worktowin

Quote from: bbuglerI fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Dude.

This place isn't for "tries". We don't "attempt". We don't do
"Our best". We quit here.

We wake up. We put our name on a roll call every day first thing. And we keep our word. In the process, we make friends. And we do not let ourselves or our friends down. Ever.

I spent 45k feeding my "habit". This is serious business dude. If you aren't ready to have balls the size of Montana and give your word (a word that we can trust) then go back and hit the can again buddy. US Tobacco Inc has a lot of bills to pay and I'm sure they would appreciate your business. Then you can come back in 2035 (I think you would be about my current age then) and finally quit. Or you can be less of a dumb fuck than I was and quit now.

If you are serious this time, know that this community is a strong chain of quit and we do not have weak links. If you are gonna let your brothers down again, stop wasting everyone's time. If you are serious, accept the harsh words headed your way and prove that your word is worthy of everyone's trust.

Don't wait til 2035...

bbugler

I fucking caved last night. I was fine my first day, and all day the second day, but then at night I couldn't sleep, and I stole a cig from my roomate. I'm pretty dissapointed. Really fucking pissed.

I'm back, and I got to fucking quit.

(1) I fucked up. It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't fall asleep. I had to be at work in the morning. I threw away all my tins and cigs and shit, but then I remembered my roomate had a pack. So I went outside and had a smoke. Then fell asleep. I fucked up and felt like shit after it. I still feel like shit, but I'm going to make it tonight.

(2) it happened because I was frustrated and couldn't take the feeling. I was weak.

(3)
Quit Day: 5/7/14.

Quit fucking sucks. So does Cancer

thewolfe

Quote from: bbugler
Quote from: ThumblewortI'm 44 and 33 days quit. You have nearly 20 years on me to be quit. Don't be me in 20 years and run the numbers and have regret. If your curious, I estimate $27,500 I spent on Skoal Cherry. That's a big chunk of college for one of my kids right there. Plus the cancer worries, nice, huh?

I quit with you today.
$27K holy fuck man, yeah, it's time to stop man. Day two here I come.
Just think what a new jaw would cost????

DeskJockey

I'm a Cinco De Mayo quitter too, but it was just a coincidence that was the day I woke up and said "never again" and meant it.

That was 367 days ago, on 5/5/2013.

Don't you want to be here a year from now saying the same things I and all the other guys in this thread are saying and helping new quitters?

It's a decision only you can make but once you do you won't belive the help and support you'll receive...and give, too, just from being here and posting roll and letting others see your name and be inspired by all the people quitting with them.

Don't get me wrong - it's not about this website, it's about YOU - but the website helps.

Best wishes!

Minny

Quote from: bbugler
Quote from: duathman
Quote from: LeonardThompsonSon,

Don't end up like me. 44 yrs old and only 71 days quit. I sometimes think about what it would've been like if I quit when I was 25. I'd have almost twenty years of no-worrying-about-cancer FREEDOM.

Also, MICH34 is so right on. We've all given this "a try" so many times before now that ended in failure. You must commit if you want to succeed. The good news is you don't have to make a long term commitment. Just quit for one day. Slide over to the welcome center and brush up on how to do that. What goes on here is simple. We all promise ourselves and each other that we will not use nicotine today. We do it each day.

I'll quit with you today. Get over to the August Group and post roll. Don't do this for Cinco De Mayo...that's kinda fucked up anyway. Do it right now because you don't want to be a slave to nicotine ever again.
Good stuff in here already. The shit could be free for all I care.......cause I am QUIT. Just switch to something cheaper next time. You think quitting cause your jaw missing a good excuse? You knew the risk for 11 years and still did it.

Let me explain something. I am QUIT there isn't a DAMN thing the nic bitch can do about it the day I quit. Fuck because this or that. Just be quit.
I dont fully understand this.... your saying you shouldn't have a reason to quit?
I think what he is saying is that you knew all along that dipping was horrible for your health but you chose to ignore the risks for 11 years. "It's not going to happen to me" "one won't hurt" "I'll quit before any harm is done" blah blah blah. Anyway, I think what he's saying is that quitting because you want to keep your jaw is bullshit and that before long you'll be telling yourself the same lies again. You have to want this MORE than that because the addict inside you sure as hell wants "just one more" in spite of everything else. I hope that's helpful.

Watch this video: RISK
Quit Date 7/12/13
HOF Date 10/19/13


My HOF Speech

cbird65

Quote from: Emulator
Quote from: ThumblewortGlad you realize this isn't a hand holding club. I thought the same on Fat Tuesday this year when I posted my intro wearing a nicotine patch. I was wrong and the KTC is right.

We are blunt and unapologetic because our quits are saving our lives. We want you to be quit with us Every Damn Day as well, but sometimes a new quitter needs to be bopped on the head with a truth hammer, as I was 2 months ago. I posted a promise 30 minutes ago that I will not use nicotine today. I see you posted Day 1 again.

So why did you cave? This isn't a joke kid.
Its not about giving people shit. Its about giving people a chance, sometimes the skin has to be toughened to strengthen the resolution in a person so the quit will survive. So if needed get mad get pissed, do say what ever you need to to whomever.... but quit and stay quit. strengthen the resolve in your quit. If you do not get tough really quickly the nic bitch will kick your ass. We/ they will do anything to help you quit with one exception and that is quitting for you, we will quit with you every damn day though.
Take this serious or stop wasting our time

(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What is your detailed emergency action plan?
Believe Me

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Assurance

Backstory