Hi I'm an ocean lifeguard of many years and have dipped for two of them. Believe it or not most of the people I work with do. I've tried quitting several times before and the farthest I made it was 14 days but this time I have no major events within the next month so now is the time to quit and the time to quit is now. That was a major source for excuses during most times that I caved. I know how much it sucks up to a couple weeks but beyond that is a personal mystery for myself so I have prepared myself to suffer in the coming days.
My one goal besides quitting is that despite the hardships I will face in the coming days is that I will have no negative impact on any person I come across whether that be in conversation or driving. I have a nasty temper and when I TRIED quitting in the past I snapped on many people. It was almost beyond my control. I pray this does not repeat itself.