About my Quit: I decided it is no longer a wanted part of my life. My family is too important for me to keep poisoning myself. I am beyond hiding the truth from myself and my loved ones. I want this addiction to be dealt with, plain and simple.
I am on Day 12 now. It has not been easy. I have encountered many of the side-effects of quitting that have been discussed throughout the boards here. I am hoping none are gravely serious, but I will encounter those as I go if necessary.
After using this crap for 25+ years it is a struggle, but reading the other testimonials and discussion threads has helped me. I have not had a desire to cave as of yet. I have had cravings, but none that made me want to give in. It feels great to be heading down the road away from the can. I cannot promise I will not cave tomorrow, but I can promise I will not cave today.
Hogan
Good post, man!
You're getting there and it's a beautiful thing to see. I used for 25 years too bro. 2 to 2.5 cans a day for the last 10 or so. I was super junkie. Any time was a good time to fill my face. By the end I hated it soooo much. I was making myself sick... I couldn't seem to get enough but it was ALL too much. Like you're experiencing, quitting is/was the hardest thing I've ever done. But, I'll tell you this, just making that first roll post and even getting 3 days in... I knew I was gonna see this through. I knew that Quit was exactly what I wanted. Yeah, I fought like hell but that's the price of a 25 year addiction... you gots to pay some dues to be clean. Here's what I know... stop the fear and take charge, Own your quit... relish the suck, it's a badge of honor and you need to be loud and proud as hell to be DOING this... love and nurture your quit, help new guys, get involved, communicate with every quitter who comes across your radar... know that you're winning, that evil chemical REALLY doesn't control you, you're the one calling the shots.
Somewhere around your number of days it dawned on me that I could do this. All that fear that I "might not make it" was bullshit. The bitch hanging on for dear life. That realization... changed my life. Quit for life. Yeah, I know we preach the "One Day At A Time" mantra and it's true in the beginning but... at some point you KNOW. You'll reach the point where you embrace that this new you is worth it and there's no going back.
Ever.
Freedom. Rocks.