Welcome Baylor. You have made an excellent decision, one which you will not regret. This is not going to be an easy journey at first, but eventually you will look back on these struggles and realize that you successfully battled the chains of addiction. This is about getting you freedom back. No longer will you need to live your life in between dips. No more planning, wasting money, and poisoning yourself. Every minute you do not give into the temptation to dip, you are winning.
The story of the two wolves popped in my head when I read your intro so here it is for you. Read it and absorb it:
The Two Wolves- A Native American Cherokee Story
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, “My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all.
“One is Evil – It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
“The other is Good – It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: “Which wolf wins?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”