Well, name's Matt. I stopped using Sunday, Dec. 4. Found this site on the net and have read alot of the welcome materials.
Bottom line, I've tried to quit on my own several times after a twenty-year habit. First week went ok this time around, but as I got feeling better and thinking I got it beat, I realized I was just setting myself up to go back to it if I didn't find some other resources. Have read some of the speeches and introductions. This is where I need to be.
I know posting my promise is key to myself and this site. I appreciate how the welcome information lays all this out and I do promise, no nic today.
Welcome Matt.
You got some great insight for someone who hasn't been here long and has a week under their belt. Just remember, you and I are ADDICTS, we will never have this beat. Ever. The good news is that we can be non using addicts for life, and tell that nic bitch to go to hell every day.
I promise this gets better, so much better.
Welcome to freedom.
Thanks for the welcome redyota. I wouldn't call it insight, but experience. Past six months, I've tried to quit four times. First few days actually not that bad. I can make it one day, three days, a week with no problem. Usually what happens is that after that period, I declare myself cured. I must not really be hooked. So, I go get a can and tell myself I can control this. Won't do a can a day again...will just do three, four dips a day, just for the taste.
Well, doesn't take long to get back to that can a day. This time when I quit, and I hit a week and a half yesterday, I felt the itch. Same old shit. So, I decided, instead of running to buy the can, to do a little research. I googled quitting dip. I found this site and read through a lot of the welcome stuff and the articles. Saw the pix.
Still didn't sign up though. I went to bed last night still on the fence. I didn't know if I wanted to commit to what the welcome center said the philosophy was. When I woke this morning, craved hard. Craving now. That's when I said, fuck it. I'm in. Registered and found that March group and, based on that little counter deal on the home page, put up my day 12. I'm craving and eating carrots to fight it. I have no cans on me and will not leave work for lunch. I've promised, and I'm not using today, even if it kills me.
