Hello everyone,
My name is Will. I'm posting this as the "official" day one of my quit. This is my second attempt at quitting the devil in the tin.
I have dipped since I was 15, which is 18 years. I had quit once semi-recently. I lasted about 6 months, thought I had it licked. Then some family came in town for Thanksgiving, and I did the whole "I'll just have one dip, I can do it.", and I've been rehooked ever since.
My wife is angered. More than I think she even realizes. I have two beautiful girls. I WANT to quit, I want this behind me. I have been "attempting" to quit since January 21st. It hasn't been working. I have gone 2-3 days max before caving. I have even lied to wife about it, losing her trust for my shame.
Today is the day I take a stand. For my kids, for my wife, for myself, for my life. I quit, and I look forward to the help and assistance of those who have succeeded before me!
I am suffering sever anxiety attacks, depression, rage, anger, resentment, and I am acknowledging the fact that this is required, and a result of my own choices. It's going to be a bumpy ride, but I look forward to the end of it!