I took my first dip the summer between my 5th and 6th grades, it made me sick but that didn't stop me from tiring it again and again over the next few years. Once I was in high school and could get cans on the regular, it was then I laid the foundation for my daily habit of over 20 years.
The last time dip was in my lip was Wednesday (nov30th2011) @ 6am; 3hrs ago was my 4 day mark of being CLEAN; and I really mean clean. I had NO idea how much nicotine was in my system and how it feels to have it leave your body (cold turkey). I dont drink or take drugs of any kind (anymore); and I have had the strangest feelings since quitting dip. I have had 2 crying spells, short but overwhelming; and the have happened when I began to read y'alls website and I began to reflect upon how horrible I have treated myself and how stupid I have been.
I found y'alls website when I was looking for some answers to questions I had about nicotine addiction and poor circulation forever cold/numb fingers and toes. It has been a big help the last 2-3 days and I plan to keep coming back. I plan to write a HOF post in about 96 days; and I have been warmer the last 2-3 days than I have been in years (sad fact: I live in Tallahassee, Fl and it dosen't get that cold here but to me it used to feel like Siberia).
I will never go back inside the can again; it makes no sense to put that stuff in my lip anymore. The last few days have sucked but the have also scared the crap out of me; I didnt realize I was so far gone, I realize now more than ever that I was hurting myself and it needed to stop.
