i started dipping in high school. introduced to while working for my friends landscaping company, he taught me how to dip. didnÂ’t really get into it, until next year when the older class came back from basic training and were all chewing skoal cherry. those were my friends and now they weÂ’re marines, so i looked up to them. still, didnÂ’t really appeal to me. once again as a freshman in college, my roommate and i would always dip together while we played madden, almost every night. but i was still able to give it up easy. i shouldÂ’ve stayed that- iÂ’ve always been much more of a smoker. light in high school, heavy in college and after, then light the past few years.
i quit smokin when i started dating my gf a few years ago, and like the previous times i quit smoking, i used chew because it was easy for me to quit chew.
fast forward to when i moved to DC on my own, working a highstress job, and with nobody to watch me- i quickly became a can a day user. my gf would come down on the wknds, and at first i could go all weekend without using- but the moment she left on monday- i was right back to it.
then, the long showers on saturday, the errands to the store without her...i couldnÂ’t stop. she found a can in my truck- and i just brushed it off and said they were only pouches. and more then once i left a spittoon out, which she luckily didnÂ’t see or smell.
my mouth starts to hurt, my gums receding, and i wasnÂ’t smiling as much. i became much more conscious of my breath around the office (i never chewed at work). i would stop for a few days or go light, but would always return.
i always had a quit date, the first of the month, thanksgiving, halloween, the day i got a raise at work...i was so adamant about quitting, but they came went. i stopped at the same c store as always, where they pulled the 2 cans down for me without even asking. i could always find another better day to quit, or an excuse for that day.
finally, i went on vacation last weekend. i know that i wasnÂ’t going to smoke or have a dip those days, so that would help with my 3 day battle. the urge was strong last night, but know i have a few days under my belt and donÂ’t want to throw them away.
quitting is terrible. iÂ’m not focused, i canÂ’t sleep, iÂ’m in the fog. iÂ’m hungry all the time...but i know itÂ’s worth it. and everything that has worth is worth paying for. i hope to stay strong and not relapse. i have the jakes mint chew, gum, and when i feel like dipping- iÂ’m going to look at the damage to my teeth and gums, shop for teeth whitening stuff on amazon, work out, remember how many times i spilled spittoons on clothes and my place, think about how dirty my truck is with a thousand flakes and napkins everywhere, think about kissing girls with no regret, think about how stupid i looked walking out with my disposable cup of water from the day at the office, and read this forum.
no matter when i quit- itÂ’s going to suck. the price stays the same no matter what, quitting isnÂ’t going to go on sale- itÂ’ll never be easier. i just gotta fight thru it, or i can stay a slave to this until then.
many thanks to the people who run and post here, itÂ’s very helpful to me.