I woke up here

Started by Supplehands, August 13, 2015, 11:25:00 AM

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Supplehands

Quote from: CanStopWillStopYour intro is very comforting for another young(ish) guy looking to get out ahead of all the trouble. I'm just now sneaking up on 4 weeks but already the positive changes are starting to show. Quit on, brother.
Thanks for the message. Always put your quit first in your life, and paradoxically, you will be putting the people and things that really matter first by default. Keep crushing it ODAAT and don't forget to check out the view along the way!

CanStopWillStop

Your intro is very comforting for another young(ish) guy looking to get out ahead of all the trouble. I'm just now sneaking up on 4 weeks but already the positive changes are starting to show. Quit on, brother.
"The man in black fled across the desert, and the gunslinger followed."

Supplehands

I can't believe it has been 2 years since I dumped out my last can of Grizzley Wintergreen while I was driving. In so many ways it feels like I never dipped. When I see people dipping my only thought is that I feel sorry for them because I understand how difficult it is to quit and I know they probably would like to. I still remember early on in my quit thinking how bad my life was going to suck without dip because of the emtpy feeling. Luckily that feeling fades completely.

One thing I love is not being concerned with every little thing I feel in my mouth. Now I can brush my teeth, visit the dentist and not think about my mouth beyond that. That's freedom. Quitting is a hike up a steep mountain. It takes a lot of determination, there are dangers along the way. But intermittently you'll catch glimpses of an ever increasing view peaking through the trees. And eventually your at the ridge line and all the hard work is done. The only thing left to do is enjoy the view, and keep your footing because one loose rock could send you a long way down.

I'm walking the ridgeline now. The view is gorgeous and my footing is solid.

Thanks KTC. And if you are new here, listen to the advice you are given. There is enough room for everyone to share in the view.

Supplehands

As I get ready to step into day 595 I can't help but reflect for a moment. My life has improved in a lot of ways. During the early stages of my quit I only focused on not using nicotine. Over the past few months I have further improved my health. I have replaced soft drinks with water, and have cut out fast food almost completely. I have been exercising regularly as well. Quitting nicotine has saved me money, immense amounts of time, and my health. My mouth appears as if I never dipped. I have saved roughly $800 (dip is very cheap in Virginia). My health insurance premiums were cut in half saving an additional $408 per year. I'm in my 20's but my blood pressure and heart rate have dropped (blood pressure was running high, due mainly to genetics). How can I even quantify all the time saved? The extra time playing with my child. The value of setting a proper example. This was the way my life was supposed to be lived.

I'm excited to cross the 2 year threshold. I'm very excited to approach a coma. But with all of that excitement in mind, I know that I am just one poor decision away from starting over. I'm never tempted to use. I always keep KTC in mind. I know that there are so many people fighting each and every second of each and every day trying not to cave, I can't help but think, I should be here to help them through that phase, not end up struggling along side them because of a poor decision. My role in the quit journey is to support others at this point, not to disappoint anyone. If you are reading this and you are struggling with quitting, know that it gets better. I don't just mean that you will improve. I mean that you will genuinely be better off in every way. Keep the faith that there will come a time when you are truly free and you can move forward with your life.

ChickDip

Quote from: KingNothingAwesome post Supple and I couldn't agree more.
Great post Supple.
July 2015 Jackals - House of WUPP
"....the load doesn't weigh me down at all, he ain't heavy he's my brother"
Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think.
"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack
"Make It Through Today" WarE2013 (Rest Easy)
"I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP
"Endeavor to Persevere!" Lone Waite

my intro / my HOF speech / my comma club
Building a Strong Quit / My HOF Day

KingNothing

Awesome post Supple and I couldn't agree more.
"Fuck nicotine dude. You don't need it. And you don't want it. It didn't do a thing for you and you know it." - worktowin
"today you dissided that shit wont control your life. and it wont. unless you let it." - drome
"Not thinking about nicotine is for people who've never used nicotine. We threw that option away with the first dip or drag on a cigarette. We are addicts, and cannot become un-addicted." - wildirish317
"You need to decide how much you really want to be quit." - pky1520
We are always at risk. And probably always will be. That is why I will never get "too quit" to post my +1. Every. Damn. Day. - geis2597

Intro
Freedom Tastes So Good

Quit: 7/10/15, HOF: 10/17/15, 2nd Floor: 1/25/16, 3rd Floor: 5/4/16, 1 year: 7/10/16 4th Floor: 8/12/16, 5th Floor: 11/20/16, 6th Floor: 2/28/17, 7th Floor: 6/8/17, 2 years: 7/10/17, 8th Floor: 9/16/17, 9th Floor: 12/25/17, Comma: 4/4/18, 3 years: 7/10/18, 11th Floor: 7/13/18

Supplehands

I came back to my introduction for the first time in several months. Today is day 349 of no nicotine. Life doesn't stop for you to quit. There is no perfect time to quit, there is only right now. There is only today. Things will happen along the way that will test you. It may be as simple as someone tossing you a can, or it may be as heavy as a loss of a loved one. Your life isn't defined by what happens to you, your life is defined by your reactions to those events.

I'm not sure why today is the day I visited my introduction or why I decided to ramble but it just felt right. A lot has happened in the last year. I've measured life differently in the last year. My perspective is different. I'm more patient, and compassionate. I owe a lot to KTC. A lot of growth as a human occurred because of this website. A lot of strength was developed right here.

I'm excited to step into year two with no nicotine. I'm excited to continue to develop this complex concept that we call freedom. How many people in our lives are actually free? Free from substances, abusive relationships, unjust laws, etc... probably not many. When I first quit it felt like being in a prison. The cravings gave me the perception that I was suffering. What I had really done was step out of the prison and my brain fought against the fresh air, the freedom.

I'm thankful for KTC. The people here are fighters, and they care. I like being around fighters and people who care. I like being a part of that.

Here's to today, because that is all there is.

Candoit

Quote from: ChickDip
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: eyehatecopeCongrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
Welcome to the 3rd floor my brother!
My lil Supplebuttz!
Congrats on hitting the 3rd floor!
Palmolive great job of stacking the +1's
There are no circumstances in which using nicotine will improve the outcome.

My journey. The best part it is not over yet.

ChickDip

Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: eyehatecopeCongrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
Welcome to the 3rd floor my brother!
My lil Supplebuttz!
Congrats on hitting the 3rd floor!
July 2015 Jackals - House of WUPP
"....the load doesn't weigh me down at all, he ain't heavy he's my brother"
Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think.
"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack
"Make It Through Today" WarE2013 (Rest Easy)
"I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP
"Endeavor to Persevere!" Lone Waite

my intro / my HOF speech / my comma club
Building a Strong Quit / My HOF Day

pab1964

Quote from: eyehatecopeCongrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
Welcome to the 3rd floor my brother!
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

eyehatecope

Congrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
Jenny and Tom Kern

RIP My Brother!

ChickDip

Mr. SuppleButtz..

Proud of you!! Congrats on your HoF day! Nice 100, keep it going, your not done. But you're strong.

I. quit with you today.

Sweet!!
July 2015 Jackals - House of WUPP
"....the load doesn't weigh me down at all, he ain't heavy he's my brother"
Try to believe that you are worth more than you think, and others are worth more than you think.
"If you haven't... Quit now......If you have... Stay that way " ~AppleJack
"Make It Through Today" WarE2013 (Rest Easy)
"I am quit... for today... with you... but not FOR you" ~LBP
"Endeavor to Persevere!" Lone Waite

my intro / my HOF speech / my comma club
Building a Strong Quit / My HOF Day

pab1964

Quote from: Candoit
Quote from: mogulGood intro, great quit. Even better attitudes and that is what it is going to take. There are ups and downs and then there are dip dreams and they suck. Nicotine is a poison of very powerful abilities. At 650 days quit the dip dream still hit me. Stay strong, stay connected to each other. If it was not for this place I would still be dipping. It's not the site, it's the people.

Mogul
Palmolive do not forget the simplicity of this place.

Post roll giving us your word that you are quit for today.
Do what ever it takes to keep your word.

Repeat.
If the quit comes from the heart it's much easier to accomplish! Doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

Candoit

Quote from: mogulGood intro, great quit. Even better attitudes and that is what it is going to take. There are ups and downs and then there are dip dreams and they suck. Nicotine is a poison of very powerful abilities. At 650 days quit the dip dream still hit me. Stay strong, stay connected to each other. If it was not for this place I would still be dipping. It's not the site, it's the people.

Mogul
Palmolive do not forget the simplicity of this place.

Post roll giving us your word that you are quit for today.
Do what ever it takes to keep your word.

Repeat.
There are no circumstances in which using nicotine will improve the outcome.

My journey. The best part it is not over yet.

Mogul

Good intro, great quit. Even better attitudes and that is what it is going to take. There are ups and downs and then there are dip dreams and they suck. Nicotine is a poison of very powerful abilities. At 650 days quit the dip dream still hit me. Stay strong, stay connected to each other. If it was not for this place I would still be dipping. It's not the site, it's the people.

Mogul