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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #62 on: July 30, 2015, 07:03:00 PM »
LOL that was this morning. It became a pretty stressful day

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #61 on: July 30, 2015, 10:55:00 AM »
Nick, I wanted to bump your intro so you could read about those first few days and the tough love you were getting. I noticed on roll this morning you may have turned the corner a little. Stay vigilant bro, and remember how awful that first week was. Never go back. Quit all damn day with you.

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #60 on: July 21, 2015, 11:34:00 AM »
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Last time here: I will try to smack some sense into you. After this I give up on you and will only bet on you in the short term.

You are the NIC bitch's bitch right now. You need to flip that shit around. Make the NIC bitch your bitch. Otherwise this is only an attempted quit, otherwise known as a stoppage. If you want to actually be quit you need to recognize, and start smashing, your enemy. The sooner the better. The longer you keep jerking off to your precious dip memories the less likely you will be successful. Focus your hate and anger. Learn the ways of quit. Join us or die.
Smack this - I'm a man of my word. Even if I don't agree with it, if I commit to doing something, I'm fucking doing it. Take that short bet and shove it up your ass
Bring the rage, it means you are healing.
You're killing it nick! Keep up the fight but you may wanna check blood pressure. Rage on quitter!
Thanks
Yep. Focus and channel that rage on one thing: nicotine. You don't have to prove jack shit to any of us. We aren't quitting for you. Only with you.

The only thing you have to prove that actually matters is that you are the master of your addiction, rather than the other way around.

Good job on getting yourself up on roll. After today, any remaining nicotine in your body will be broken down and flushed out. The only way to go from here is up.

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #59 on: July 21, 2015, 10:12:00 AM »
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Last time here: I will try to smack some sense into you. After this I give up on you and will only bet on you in the short term.

You are the NIC bitch's bitch right now. You need to flip that shit around. Make the NIC bitch your bitch. Otherwise this is only an attempted quit, otherwise known as a stoppage. If you want to actually be quit you need to recognize, and start smashing, your enemy. The sooner the better. The longer you keep jerking off to your precious dip memories the less likely you will be successful. Focus your hate and anger. Learn the ways of quit. Join us or die.
Smack this - I'm a man of my word. Even if I don't agree with it, if I commit to doing something, I'm fucking doing it. Take that short bet and shove it up your ass
Bring the rage, it means you are healing.
You're killing it nick! Keep up the fight but you may wanna check blood pressure. Rage on quitter!
Thanks

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #58 on: July 21, 2015, 10:10:00 AM »
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Last time here: I will try to smack some sense into you. After this I give up on you and will only bet on you in the short term.

You are the NIC bitch's bitch right now. You need to flip that shit around. Make the NIC bitch your bitch. Otherwise this is only an attempted quit, otherwise known as a stoppage. If you want to actually be quit you need to recognize, and start smashing, your enemy. The sooner the better. The longer you keep jerking off to your precious dip memories the less likely you will be successful. Focus your hate and anger. Learn the ways of quit. Join us or die.
Smack this - I'm a man of my word. Even if I don't agree with it, if I commit to doing something, I'm fucking doing it. Take that short bet and shove it up your ass
Bring the rage, it means you are healing.
You're killing it nick! Keep up the fight but you may wanna check blood pressure. Rage on quitter!
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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #57 on: July 21, 2015, 09:33:00 AM »
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Last time here: I will try to smack some sense into you. After this I give up on you and will only bet on you in the short term.

You are the NIC bitch's bitch right now. You need to flip that shit around. Make the NIC bitch your bitch. Otherwise this is only an attempted quit, otherwise known as a stoppage. If you want to actually be quit you need to recognize, and start smashing, your enemy. The sooner the better. The longer you keep jerking off to your precious dip memories the less likely you will be successful. Focus your hate and anger. Learn the ways of quit. Join us or die.
Smack this - I'm a man of my word. Even if I don't agree with it, if I commit to doing something, I'm fucking doing it. Take that short bet and shove it up your ass
Bring the rage, it means you are healing.
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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #56 on: July 21, 2015, 08:27:00 AM »
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Last time here: I will try to smack some sense into you. After this I give up on you and will only bet on you in the short term.

You are the NIC bitch's bitch right now. You need to flip that shit around. Make the NIC bitch your bitch. Otherwise this is only an attempted quit, otherwise known as a stoppage. If you want to actually be quit you need to recognize, and start smashing, your enemy. The sooner the better. The longer you keep jerking off to your precious dip memories the less likely you will be successful. Focus your hate and anger. Learn the ways of quit. Join us or die.
Smack this - I'm a man of my word. Even if I don't agree with it, if I commit to doing something, I'm fucking doing it. Take that short bet and shove it up your ass

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #55 on: July 20, 2015, 09:42:00 PM »
Last time here: I will try to smack some sense into you. After this I give up on you and will only bet on you in the short term.

You are the NIC bitch's bitch right now. You need to flip that shit around. Make the NIC bitch your bitch. Otherwise this is only an attempted quit, otherwise known as a stoppage. If you want to actually be quit you need to recognize, and start smashing, your enemy. The sooner the better. The longer you keep jerking off to your precious dip memories the less likely you will be successful. Focus your hate and anger. Learn the ways of quit. Join us or die.
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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #54 on: July 20, 2015, 06:29:00 PM »
Angrynickcage....

Who you angry at.
Family?
Yourself?
A drug?

Maybe your just upset with the lie.
Life is not better with NICOTINE.

Whether you want to believe or not.

Truth is truth.
Lies are lies.
They will remain the same with or without you and or your perceptions.

Seek the truth and wisdom from these men and women here on KTC.

The Truth is the key to your cage!

Time for a New identity.
Be the one to break the chains of your past. Be the one to do it different.
Be a leader for others to follow.
Leave a legacy.
It's easy.... Just focus on now.
EDD ODAAT.

I quit with you today.
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I believe.....

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #53 on: July 20, 2015, 05:54:00 PM »
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I bet if I gave you a dull hatchet, you could cut down a 300 year old live oak in under 30 minutes right now. This is a good thing. Hell, you might just want to go try it to get some of that nic rage out.

Two days in and you're starting to face some cold realities. The first of which is that you have been a slave to a can for a long, long time. The second is that you are seeing what direct confrontation between your addict mind and your rational mind looks like. Even now, you say you're only quitting to get your family off your back. If it weren't for them, "precious" would be face-fucking you right now. Either way, the seed has been planted. You know why you're quitting, even if it's mostly obscured behind the constant screaming for some sweet relief in a pinch of cat shit. Let the seedling grow.

Your feelings on yesterday, your past, your lineage to tobacco, all of it is an illusion masked by an addiction to a plant. It's not precious. It's pathetic. The more time and distance you put between yourself and nicotine, the more that view will start to come into focus.

Keep on posting roll. Make it your life's mission. Not because it will help you to feel better, but because it gives you a starting point for that rage you're feeling. Pissed as fuck? Good. Be pissed all you want, but you sure as shit won't let that come between you and your word.

Be pissed that you dug yourself into this deep pit that you now find yourself desperately trying to claw your way out of. Your family didn't put you there. You did. They've been yelling down from the top of the hole for quite a while it sounds like. Well, you finally stopped digging and started climbing. Keep going. Not for them. For you. They couldn't make you quit any more than they could force you to dip. All of this rests upon you.

Soon enough, you will start to feel a little better. Then you'll go back and reread that horseshit about living to 50 being "good enough" and cringe at how firmly this addiction has had you in its clutches.

Until then, keep posting roll. You can do this, because every single person that has replied to this thread has done it and continues to do it. One day at a time.
I'd probably bust myself in the head for as many times as I could lift said axe. Can I check into a coma?

This was helpful. Is there anything I can do now to make this shit stop?
Pushups to failure. Chug water. Hit the heavy bag. More water. And rant and rave on here as much as you want... turn into the Steven King of KTC if you need, we will be here listening every bit of the way bro.
Hey my little friend, this dickweed. I'm glad you taking shit out on me. Man I must be doing something right. Remember this there some badass dudes on here wasting time or we all actually give a shit, me ,I haven't made my mind up yet. Oh yeah, what is a dickweed? You've shown me what an asswipe is. Quit on you badass raging asswipe!
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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #52 on: July 20, 2015, 05:45:00 PM »
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Quote from: Tuco's
I bet if I gave you a dull hatchet, you could cut down a 300 year old live oak in under 30 minutes right now. This is a good thing. Hell, you might just want to go try it to get some of that nic rage out.

Two days in and you're starting to face some cold realities. The first of which is that you have been a slave to a can for a long, long time. The second is that you are seeing what direct confrontation between your addict mind and your rational mind looks like. Even now, you say you're only quitting to get your family off your back. If it weren't for them, "precious" would be face-fucking you right now. Either way, the seed has been planted. You know why you're quitting, even if it's mostly obscured behind the constant screaming for some sweet relief in a pinch of cat shit. Let the seedling grow.

Your feelings on yesterday, your past, your lineage to tobacco, all of it is an illusion masked by an addiction to a plant. It's not precious. It's pathetic. The more time and distance you put between yourself and nicotine, the more that view will start to come into focus.

Keep on posting roll. Make it your life's mission. Not because it will help you to feel better, but because it gives you a starting point for that rage you're feeling. Pissed as fuck? Good. Be pissed all you want, but you sure as shit won't let that come between you and your word.

Be pissed that you dug yourself into this deep pit that you now find yourself desperately trying to claw your way out of. Your family didn't put you there. You did. They've been yelling down from the top of the hole for quite a while it sounds like. Well, you finally stopped digging and started climbing. Keep going. Not for them. For you. They couldn't make you quit any more than they could force you to dip. All of this rests upon you.

Soon enough, you will start to feel a little better. Then you'll go back and reread that horseshit about living to 50 being "good enough" and cringe at how firmly this addiction has had you in its clutches.

Until then, keep posting roll. You can do this, because every single person that has replied to this thread has done it and continues to do it. One day at a time.
I'd probably bust myself in the head for as many times as I could lift said axe. Can I check into a coma?

This was helpful. Is there anything I can do now to make this shit stop?
Pushups to failure. Chug water. Hit the heavy bag. More water. And rant and rave on here as much as you want... turn into the Steven King of KTC if you need, we will be here listening every bit of the way bro.
Hey my little friend, this dickweed. I'm glad you taking shit out on me. Man I must be doing something right. Remember this there some badass dudes on here wasting time or we all actually give a shit, me ,I haven't made my mind up yet. Oh yeah, what is a dickweed? You've shown me what an asswipe is. Quit on you badass raging asswipe!
GDIAF
You'll fit in just fine here.
GDIAF= GOOD DAY I AM FINISHED?
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #51 on: July 20, 2015, 03:42:00 PM »
Quote from: AngryNickCage
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: Jerk11
Quote from: AngryNickCage
Quote from: Tuco's
I bet if I gave you a dull hatchet, you could cut down a 300 year old live oak in under 30 minutes right now. This is a good thing. Hell, you might just want to go try it to get some of that nic rage out.

Two days in and you're starting to face some cold realities. The first of which is that you have been a slave to a can for a long, long time. The second is that you are seeing what direct confrontation between your addict mind and your rational mind looks like. Even now, you say you're only quitting to get your family off your back. If it weren't for them, "precious" would be face-fucking you right now. Either way, the seed has been planted. You know why you're quitting, even if it's mostly obscured behind the constant screaming for some sweet relief in a pinch of cat shit. Let the seedling grow.

Your feelings on yesterday, your past, your lineage to tobacco, all of it is an illusion masked by an addiction to a plant. It's not precious. It's pathetic. The more time and distance you put between yourself and nicotine, the more that view will start to come into focus.

Keep on posting roll. Make it your life's mission. Not because it will help you to feel better, but because it gives you a starting point for that rage you're feeling. Pissed as fuck? Good. Be pissed all you want, but you sure as shit won't let that come between you and your word.

Be pissed that you dug yourself into this deep pit that you now find yourself desperately trying to claw your way out of. Your family didn't put you there. You did. They've been yelling down from the top of the hole for quite a while it sounds like. Well, you finally stopped digging and started climbing. Keep going. Not for them. For you. They couldn't make you quit any more than they could force you to dip. All of this rests upon you.

Soon enough, you will start to feel a little better. Then you'll go back and reread that horseshit about living to 50 being "good enough" and cringe at how firmly this addiction has had you in its clutches.

Until then, keep posting roll. You can do this, because every single person that has replied to this thread has done it and continues to do it. One day at a time.
I'd probably bust myself in the head for as many times as I could lift said axe. Can I check into a coma?

This was helpful. Is there anything I can do now to make this shit stop?
Pushups to failure. Chug water. Hit the heavy bag. More water. And rant and rave on here as much as you want... turn into the Steven King of KTC if you need, we will be here listening every bit of the way bro.
Hey my little friend, this dickweed. I'm glad you taking shit out on me. Man I must be doing something right. Remember this there some badass dudes on here wasting time or we all actually give a shit, me ,I haven't made my mind up yet. Oh yeah, what is a dickweed? You've shown me what an asswipe is. Quit on you badass raging asswipe!
GDIAF
You'll fit in just fine here.

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #50 on: July 20, 2015, 03:35:00 PM »
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Quote from: Jerk11
Quote from: AngryNickCage
Quote from: Tuco's
I bet if I gave you a dull hatchet, you could cut down a 300 year old live oak in under 30 minutes right now. This is a good thing. Hell, you might just want to go try it to get some of that nic rage out.

Two days in and you're starting to face some cold realities. The first of which is that you have been a slave to a can for a long, long time. The second is that you are seeing what direct confrontation between your addict mind and your rational mind looks like. Even now, you say you're only quitting to get your family off your back. If it weren't for them, "precious" would be face-fucking you right now. Either way, the seed has been planted. You know why you're quitting, even if it's mostly obscured behind the constant screaming for some sweet relief in a pinch of cat shit. Let the seedling grow.

Your feelings on yesterday, your past, your lineage to tobacco, all of it is an illusion masked by an addiction to a plant. It's not precious. It's pathetic. The more time and distance you put between yourself and nicotine, the more that view will start to come into focus.

Keep on posting roll. Make it your life's mission. Not because it will help you to feel better, but because it gives you a starting point for that rage you're feeling. Pissed as fuck? Good. Be pissed all you want, but you sure as shit won't let that come between you and your word.

Be pissed that you dug yourself into this deep pit that you now find yourself desperately trying to claw your way out of. Your family didn't put you there. You did. They've been yelling down from the top of the hole for quite a while it sounds like. Well, you finally stopped digging and started climbing. Keep going. Not for them. For you. They couldn't make you quit any more than they could force you to dip. All of this rests upon you.

Soon enough, you will start to feel a little better. Then you'll go back and reread that horseshit about living to 50 being "good enough" and cringe at how firmly this addiction has had you in its clutches.

Until then, keep posting roll. You can do this, because every single person that has replied to this thread has done it and continues to do it. One day at a time.
I'd probably bust myself in the head for as many times as I could lift said axe. Can I check into a coma?

This was helpful. Is there anything I can do now to make this shit stop?
Pushups to failure. Chug water. Hit the heavy bag. More water. And rant and rave on here as much as you want... turn into the Steven King of KTC if you need, we will be here listening every bit of the way bro.
Hey my little friend, this dickweed. I'm glad you taking shit out on me. Man I must be doing something right. Remember this there some badass dudes on here wasting time or we all actually give a shit, me ,I haven't made my mind up yet. Oh yeah, what is a dickweed? You've shown me what an asswipe is. Quit on you badass raging asswipe!
GDIAF

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #49 on: July 20, 2015, 03:32:00 PM »
Quote from: Jerk11
Quote from: AngryNickCage
Quote from: Tuco's
I bet if I gave you a dull hatchet, you could cut down a 300 year old live oak in under 30 minutes right now. This is a good thing. Hell, you might just want to go try it to get some of that nic rage out.

Two days in and you're starting to face some cold realities. The first of which is that you have been a slave to a can for a long, long time. The second is that you are seeing what direct confrontation between your addict mind and your rational mind looks like. Even now, you say you're only quitting to get your family off your back. If it weren't for them, "precious" would be face-fucking you right now. Either way, the seed has been planted. You know why you're quitting, even if it's mostly obscured behind the constant screaming for some sweet relief in a pinch of cat shit. Let the seedling grow.

Your feelings on yesterday, your past, your lineage to tobacco, all of it is an illusion masked by an addiction to a plant. It's not precious. It's pathetic. The more time and distance you put between yourself and nicotine, the more that view will start to come into focus.

Keep on posting roll. Make it your life's mission. Not because it will help you to feel better, but because it gives you a starting point for that rage you're feeling. Pissed as fuck? Good. Be pissed all you want, but you sure as shit won't let that come between you and your word.

Be pissed that you dug yourself into this deep pit that you now find yourself desperately trying to claw your way out of. Your family didn't put you there. You did. They've been yelling down from the top of the hole for quite a while it sounds like. Well, you finally stopped digging and started climbing. Keep going. Not for them. For you. They couldn't make you quit any more than they could force you to dip. All of this rests upon you.

Soon enough, you will start to feel a little better. Then you'll go back and reread that horseshit about living to 50 being "good enough" and cringe at how firmly this addiction has had you in its clutches.

Until then, keep posting roll. You can do this, because every single person that has replied to this thread has done it and continues to do it. One day at a time.
I'd probably bust myself in the head for as many times as I could lift said axe. Can I check into a coma?

This was helpful. Is there anything I can do now to make this shit stop?
Pushups to failure. Chug water. Hit the heavy bag. More water. And rant and rave on here as much as you want... turn into the Steven King of KTC if you need, we will be here listening every bit of the way bro.
Hey my little friend, this dickweed. I'm glad you taking shit out on me. Man I must be doing something right. Remember this there some badass dudes on here wasting time or we all actually give a shit, me ,I haven't made my mind up yet. Oh yeah, what is a dickweed? You've shown me what an asswipe is. Quit on you badass raging asswipe!
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

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Re: Ever see that scene from Face Off...
« Reply #48 on: July 20, 2015, 03:27:00 PM »
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Quote from: Tuco's
I bet if I gave you a dull hatchet, you could cut down a 300 year old live oak in under 30 minutes right now. This is a good thing. Hell, you might just want to go try it to get some of that nic rage out.

Two days in and you're starting to face some cold realities. The first of which is that you have been a slave to a can for a long, long time. The second is that you are seeing what direct confrontation between your addict mind and your rational mind looks like. Even now, you say you're only quitting to get your family off your back. If it weren't for them, "precious" would be face-fucking you right now. Either way, the seed has been planted. You know why you're quitting, even if it's mostly obscured behind the constant screaming for some sweet relief in a pinch of cat shit. Let the seedling grow.

Your feelings on yesterday, your past, your lineage to tobacco, all of it is an illusion masked by an addiction to a plant. It's not precious. It's pathetic. The more time and distance you put between yourself and nicotine, the more that view will start to come into focus.

Keep on posting roll. Make it your life's mission. Not because it will help you to feel better, but because it gives you a starting point for that rage you're feeling. Pissed as fuck? Good. Be pissed all you want, but you sure as shit won't let that come between you and your word.

Be pissed that you dug yourself into this deep pit that you now find yourself desperately trying to claw your way out of. Your family didn't put you there. You did. They've been yelling down from the top of the hole for quite a while it sounds like. Well, you finally stopped digging and started climbing. Keep going. Not for them. For you. They couldn't make you quit any more than they could force you to dip. All of this rests upon you.

Soon enough, you will start to feel a little better. Then you'll go back and reread that horseshit about living to 50 being "good enough" and cringe at how firmly this addiction has had you in its clutches.

Until then, keep posting roll. You can do this, because every single person that has replied to this thread has done it and continues to do it. One day at a time.
I'd probably bust myself in the head for as many times as I could lift said axe. Can I check into a coma?

This was helpful. Is there anything I can do now to make this shit stop?
Pushups to failure. Chug water. Hit the heavy bag. More water. And rant and rave on here as much as you want... turn into the Steven King of KTC if you need, we will be here listening every bit of the way bro.