Today I am 33 years old and have a girlfriend who has two kids. Two boys 14 and 12.I am currently day 21 into this quit. This time feels completely different though. This time I have more support than I have ever had in the past. I found this awesome website by googling quit alternatives. When I first found it, I didn't join right away. Instead I just browsed the site for a bit. A few days ago I decided to join. It has been the best decision I have made on this quit journey. I have posted roll and I have exchanged numbers. This quit journey will be the final quit journey. I am determined to never pick up dip again. It has been hard with all of the fog. The first week was the hardest. I was irritable and a huge dick to my girlfriend. She like this support system has been amazing as well. She put up with my non-dip asshole self because she cares. Before I ramble on anymore, I will give you guys a look into my dip history.
I started chewing redman at 14 years old. I then moved to wolf wintergreen and skoal wintergreen in high school. I would frequency switch between brands. My Junior year in high school, I actually quit for the entire school year. So at that time it would of been roughly 8-9 months quit. I wish I would of continued the quit back then but I didn't. I was a stupid kid and picked it back up during the summer time. I think it was because two of my closest friends dipped at the time. After that I dipped Redseal wintergreen all the way until August of 2014. In August of 2014 I chose to quit again. This time my quit lasted until January of 2015. I had quit for 6 months that time around. Then I got into a huge fight with my then girlfriend. I used the fight with my girlfriend as an excuse to quit my quit and give in. I said to myself, "I can have one and it will be OK". That one turned into picking the habit back up again. Around July last year I quit again until September of last year. That time, I used the excuse of work stress to pick up the habit again. Here we are again in September of this year and I have chosen to quit again. This time is different because I have found this support group and it is amazing. I know when times get tough, I can contact one of my quit brothers and they will help me not cave into dipping again. I chose to quit this time around for two reasons. One, I chose it for myself. Two, unfortunately my girlfriends 14 year old son accidentally took a drink out of my spit bottle. He thought it was soda because it was in a coke bottle. The thought of him drinking my spit just makes me cringe and say OK I have to kick this nasty habit.
The quit has been hard so far I will not lie. Dipping after a meal was always my favorite time to dip. I have been using sunflower seeds after meals in order to replace that habit. The last few days have been easier. I haven't had to use sunflower seeds at all for after meals. I have been keeping gum and sunflower seeds on me in case any other dip triggers get to me. If I experience one of those dip triggers, I just chew some gum or use some sunflower seeds. Today is day 21 into this quit and I plan on sticking to it forever!
Hi ChastanJ,
Great job posting roll in your group. Keep that up every morning. Wake Up, Piss, Post Every Damn Day, One Day at a Time (WUPP EDD ODAAT).
I read your intro and I like that your first reason for quitting is all for you. You have to be selfish in your quit otherwise you will fail. If it is not for you first, then don't even bother. Your second reason, well, let's just say, that's a as good a reason as any. (eww for you girlfriend's son).
I would like to correct a couple of things in your intro to hopefully help you have a better mind set about your quit and what it means to you.
First, you mention "quitting" on several occasions. Here at KTC, "Quit" definitive and never ending. It would be a better thing to say that you "stopped" dipping for awhile.
Second, you mentioned picking the "habit" back up again. The only "habit" you had was that you like to put shit in your mouth. You, like me and everyone else in this forum, are ADDICTS. We are addicted to nicotine. It is not a habit that can be broken. We are addicted now, and will forever be addicted. Fortunately, we have this site and each other for support so that we can stay strong and never give in to that addiction.
You are winning right now and I am proud to quit with you today.
Check your inbox for my digits.
Chris
