I started dipping when i was 18 years old and in the military. I had decided to quit back in July i was at day 26 when I caved. I lost my job and school along with the wife was getting a bit unbearable. I went to a gas station and went into pay for my gas went all of sudden i found my self staring off into space and thinking about that cope that i thought would help me cope. so I caved, I fucking CAVED!!!!!!!!!! I hated myself for it, I put that poison in my lip and and spit it out threw the fucking out the window. The next day I went back and instead of buy cope i bought a pack. The wife was OK with that at first until we moved out of Tennessee and to Arizona. Then the adaptation to a new state with a new job and trying to get a license trying to become and insurance adjuster, oh with school i might add. I quit smoking and when to the can, i was dipping of 3 months, now i'm scared and feel alone I now need to go check out a specialist or ear nose and throat doc to see if i have the BIG C. A part of gum the left side, top back of the moler sorry if my spelling is off. anyway it hurts not like oh god i'm dying but like i have something stuck in my gum, like shit that hurts anyway again my cheek has leather feel and it peels and the spot of my gum is to it kinda feels like a canker sore, if you want the correct dialogue, lol, hi i'm sawgunner's gum i feel a little canker coming up. fucking got to joke a little bit. So what i'm doing differently this time is not going in to pay for gas and just paying at the pump. I'm terrified and what i want to continue doing is being able to kiss my wife and for her to be able to look at me. TO my last group i'm sorry for the disappointment I truly love you guys, I fucked up it my problem but please forgive me, Sept 2012. call me the Disappointment.
READ MORE ON THIS SITE - your plan of not buying gas will not work, gas stations are not the only place you can buy nic, I've even bummed nic off people I didn't know when I was in school. Your current plan is a shitty plan. With that being said, I'm not saying you won't make it, I'm saying you have some more work to do it you want to make it. PM me if you have any specific questions, jump in chat, ask your old group, ask your new group. There are so many people here that will go above and beyond to help you quit but YOU have to reach out and use them, none of us can quit for you. (Hint for you new plan - how many numbers do you have for members here, how often did you use them before, how often should you post roll, are there any questions you should answer for your old and new group?)
All that being said talk to wastepanel or per or crockett or cnc or any of the other guys who have stood where you are now and ask for their help - these guys know what they're doing...
There are differing opinions on what I am going to say but for me and my quit, this opinion works some magic.
Question: Mthomas why did you quit? I looked down at the can in my hand with a dip in my mouth. I was going to be late to work, my kid pissed me off because he got in the way of me buying a can the night before. All at once, I realized that I hated that can of skoal. Absolutely hated it! So why was I dipping if I hated it? A-ha, this is what it means to be addicted. I can't quit even if I wanted to? I need help!!!!!
I HATE NICOTINE. EVERY form of it. Nicotine is evil in a can. It caused me to break 8 out of 10 commandments. It is a false god, a graven image, I put it before God, family and lived my life for it. Then I got to reading how the industry purposely and knowingly tries to get children addicted.
I stay quit because of the support and education I got here. It has helped me overcome some difficult calls back to the can. When I am all alone to my own thoughts....I stay quit because I F'ing hate, despise and would love to destroy nicotine and the industry that enslaves us!
Do you hate nicotine or do you still adore and admire her and wish she wasn't so dangerous? She isn't dangerous if you hate her and quit everyday. When I crave...and I still do...My rage and hatred grows. I will never bow and swear allegiance to nicotine. 21 years of slavery is enough.
So when you see a can and it calls to you, get back up and remind yourself that you hate it and will never, ever be an ally, support or friend to Nicotine. You battle everyday and are at war until nicotine dies or you die.
Dramatic? Hell yes. This is a war. Welcome to the jungle, put your big boy pants on and stop feeling sorry for the break up. Celebrate your freedom from the sack of lies in a can. I'm an addict and am doing this. All addicts can win this battle.
