Hello,
My name is Tony and I've been quit now for 10 days. I've been a dipper for 12 years and an underground ninja dipper for the past year. In 2011 my wife and I agreed to quit together (she smoked) after we we're blessed with the news that we were expecting our first child. Nothing before that even made me ponder a quit. I dipped when i played golf, i dipped at work, i dipped in the shower. Doesn't matter where i was I probably had a dip in and I really didn't concern myself with the consequences, being in my mid 20's with no real responsibilities. I "stopped" dipping cold turkey in 2011 and continued to be nic free for two years. With my wife as my support system and the fear of letting her down I wouldn't go back to the nic bitch and would live my life dip free. That was until i folded like a little bitch. I told myself it was OK to just have one... i deserved it. We bought a home and i spend 9 months working on it so that my wife and child could have a great place to live. I succeeded and my prize was one last dip. For the next year i dipped and no one knew it. Not my wife, not my best friends, no one. At first i would make excuses to leave the house. "Babe, I'm making spaghetti tonight and we are out of Parmesan cheese" was my secret code for "tony is low on grizzly." after a while i graduated to black belt ninja and dipped in front of her, i dipped in front of everyone...even at work. no one knew. i was a master of my craft. I should get a medal for how awesome i was at hiding my habit.
No Tony...really you're just a piece of shit. you're lying to the woman you love who gave her word to quit and still has to this day while you leave the house to be with your other woman, the nic bitch. What a great example you have set for your child...it's OK to lie to those you love and to poison your own body and slowly kill yourself so your daughter can one day walk down the aisle by herself.
OK, that last line brought some emotion to me as I type this because I am quitting for me but more so i am quitting for my family. My wife and my daughter. I've been trying to quit for a while. i would get through a day and cave, two days...and cave. No more cave for me. I'm 10 days strong now and when i discovered this site i told myself i would not type this letter of revival until i made 10 days. here i am now with a new milestone to reach....100 days. i can and i will do it and so early in my quit i have this site to thank for it. I've been on the live chat almost every night. People like MNBEN, Bronc, Grizzlyhasclaws, and minet (sp?) show love to us newbies and lead us on a path that they have themselves been through. They are tough and as soon as you logon want to know how many days you are and make you accountable for posting roll. i thank them for that and anyone else out there trying to quit i highly recommend the live chat. Thank you for reading