Well it's now the beginning of day 5 without the can. I can't remember what I ate 10 minutes ago. I'm sleeping like a caged animal and not long to say the least. My normal ritual of waking up having a cup of coffee and then into the can is no more and I feel somewhat lost. Having quit multiple times over the years only to find myself back at the convenience store for a can purchase must now change. I'm determined to take control for myself as well as my family. My daughter suggested that she wanted me around which really got me thinking that I must quit. Hopefully, today I'll feel better and tomorrow will be better yet.
It will get better day by day. Slowly, very slowly, those daily triggers will disappear. You will find that you can have a cup of coffee and not a dip after. It will be a long, painful, slow journey, but you can do it. Stay close to this site. Post roll everyday. Read, read, read. Drink lots of water. Print out the contract I have printed below. Before you go back to dipping you must sign the contract and give it to your daughter. Good luck
CONTRACT TO GIVE UP
I give up my quit. Quitting is impossible and I cannot do it. I love dipping more than I love myself. I care about dipping more than I care about my personal health. I love dipping more than I love my family. I know this addiction will kill me, and I ACCEPT that fact. I enjoy spending time alone with my can more than I enjoy spending time with anyone else on the planet. I look forward to losing my jaw, my tongue, my throat, my life - it's worth it. When I am lying in my hospital bed fighting a losing battle against cancer I will feel a sense of satisfaction knowing that this is the path I CHOSE. My only regret will be that I didn't start dipping earlier in life. I will feel sorrow for my familyÂ’s heartbreak and suffer untold pain, but I know you must sacrifice for the things you truly love.
I know ALL the consequences of my actions and I accept them fully and without regret. I hereby choose to give my life to this addiction - I do so with a smile on face.
Signature: ____________________
Date: ____________________
