First off....welcome. Great choice, glad you found us and congrats on your ten days!
Dip did not make working in a prison easier or deer hunting any better. The only thing it did for you was relieve the symptoms from not having any.
Change your thinking, do not romanticize. You need to hate what dip did to you with everything you have.
Now head over to Dec 14 and introduce yourself. There are a whole mess of great quitters in there ready to help you.