Okay so here I sit contemplating the decisions in my life that I have recently made. For 1 the greatest decision I made was to quit chewing tobacco after 27 years, most of my adult life. Funny thing is this is the first time that I have ever quit for myself, not because someone asked me to or begged me or even tried forcing me to quit, I finally decided to do it for me. Have I lied to people I love and care for yes, do I hate myself for making that choice to become a liar YES but all I can do is move forward 1 day at a time and those people I lied to will learn to trust me again when it comes to Chewing. Such is the life of an addict, as an addict you will never be able to quit your addiction unless you truly admit you have an addiction and a problem and realize that unless you stop and change your life your going to lose everything in life that you cherish, this is what I had to confront on a daily basis and I chose to keep those that I love close to me. I had a quit date pick and made the commitment to stop on 9/3/2015 and have remained nicotine free for 48 days and counting, was it hell at first yes but as time has gone by its gotten easier. I am doing this cold turkey, I am not using nicotine gum or patches, I am not using fake chew, seeds, or anything that would simulate putting a chew into my lip, I made the choice to quit and I am standing firm on it. I know this can be done because it's my choice, and what I want to do for ME. I know everyone is different and some will face many challenges to stay quit and that there will be some that will breeze right through it and next thing you know its day 50 than day 100 and so on. As for me I no longer have cravings even though I work in a Prominent casino on the las vegas blvd and am currently in the middle of the gaming floor and the smell of smoke and nicotine In the air which I must say is literally one of the worst smells I have encountered. I have found that I would rather spend time with my children and girlfriend than to have to sneak out to steal a chew. Life is becoming fun again and I think I have finally gotten through the constant stages of always being tired and crawling into bed by 7 pm everynight. Life is good and will only get better, I have a pep to my step and I am feeling better. I am grateful to everyone in the December 2015 quit group for words of advice and encouragement when needed and for the information I have read on this site, so THANK YOU for your support. I am proud to quit with everyone on this site today, tomorrow and in the future.
