Intro - Forgive Me

[imBushe]

I made it to 100. My attendance was not as good as I thought it was at first. My group was there to straighten me out! Here is my HOF post

Nice! I too had an overwhelming sense of accomplishment on day 100. The next 100 will come faster, and not mean quite as much, but we're quit.

No one can take that away from us. We have to give it up to lose it.

I think I will have to make myself some sort of 100 day reward celebration. Maybe a week long camping trip every 100 days.

[wildirish317]

I made it to 100. My attendance was not as good as I thought it was at first. My group was there to straighten me out! Here is my HOF post

Nice! I too had an overwhelming sense of accomplishment on day 100. The next 100 will come faster, and not mean quite as much, but we're quit.

No one can take that away from us. We have to give it up to lose it.

[imBushe]

I made it to 100. My attendance was not as good as I thought it was at first. My group was there to straighten me out! Here is my HOF post

[imBushe]

Your daily promise makes the difference. It sounds like feel good bullshit, but it's the truth. I can tell you that there are three times when my daily promise is all that stood between me and a cave. I wanted to say Fuck It. I wanted to buy a can, and fill my lip with cat shit. But I remembered the promise I made to my brothers, and I couldn't let them down. I've not once made eye contact with a single one of them. But they know me, and I know them. And I promise them every day.

That's the difference between my (and your) previous attempts at a quit. Make a promise, live up to your word. Repeat daily. Don't miss a day, because you never know when a crave is going to sneak up and smack you between the eyes. Or what day you get in a monster fight with your wife, or have a crappy day at work, or whatever makes you wan to throw in the towel.

The method used here works if you drink the kool-aide.

I am learning this. From my previous quit to this one, there are significant differences. I do not feel as bad this time. Of course, I know a lot more tricks on what I need to make myself feel better during different situations, but I have noticed that coming here and signing my promise daily has helped me a lot. I am not raging nearly as hard on my wife and kids as I did last time, nor are the craves as overwhelming just knowing that support is there if I need it, as cheesy as it sounds.

[RDB]

Your daily promise makes the difference. It sounds like feel good bullshit, but it's the truth. I can tell you that there are three times when my daily promise is all that stood between me and a cave. I wanted to say Fuck It. I wanted to buy a can, and fill my lip with cat shit. But I remembered the promise I made to my brothers, and I couldn't let them down. I've not once made eye contact with a single one of them. But they know me, and I know them. And I promise them every day.

That's the difference between my (and your) previous attempts at a quit. Make a promise, live up to your word. Repeat daily. Don't miss a day, because you never know when a crave is going to sneak up and smack you between the eyes. Or what day you get in a monster fight with your wife, or have a crappy day at work, or whatever makes you wan to throw in the towel.

The method used here works if you drink the kool-aide.

[BrianG]

Welcome imBushe.

The thing to do now is be all in. Be that guy that post roll early every day. Be that guy that post support for others everyday. be that guy that gives your number to others and reaches out.

That is what the first go around was missing...

[AppleJack]

I am here to ask forgiveness. I insulted you and you never knew. I thought I was stronger than you. I believed that I could quit on my own. I though I was smarter than you. I decided it was okay to pick what wisdom I needed and what wisdom was a waste of my time. March 2016 I became a quitter. Sure enough, I made it 9 months before I caved. I lurked this site more than long enough to know better.

I have struggled even writing this post. I am ashamed of myself. I had made it so far. I dipped for 20 years. I was 12 when I took my first dip. Almost 2/3's of my life has been under nicotine's thumb. Pride was my downfall. So I am here, 2 days quit. Fog in my ears, blurred vision, anxiety, joint pain, sleep deprived (I'm so freaking tired), and pissed off. I did my first role call today. I know I can beat this, and I know that I can't beat this alone. I am happy a place like this exists. I wouldn't have quit the first time without what I learned here (obviously I didn't learn enough), and I will not be doing it alone this time.

That is some good shit right up there! ^^^

I say that because I tooootally get where you're coming from and I know exactly what it takes to own the fact that you're an addict and you need help. It's humbling. It's a li'l embarrassing. It's oddly freeing. Yeah, man... we get it. So, here's what you do now... jump in. All in. Get involved and embrace the strange beautiful method that is KTC. It works, man. Ask me how I know...

AJ... 1,436 days Quit.

[Idaho Spuds]

I am here to ask forgiveness. I insulted you and you never knew. I thought I was stronger than you. I believed that I could quit on my own. I though I was smarter than you. I decided it was okay to pick what wisdom I needed and what wisdom was a waste of my time. March 2016 I became a quitter. Sure enough, I made it 9 months before I caved. I lurked this site more than long enough to know better.

I have struggled even writing this post. I am ashamed of myself. I had made it so far. I dipped for 20 years. I was 12 when I took my first dip. Almost 2/3's of my life has been under nicotine's thumb. Pride was my downfall. So I am here, 2 days quit. Fog in my ears, blurred vision, anxiety, joint pain, sleep deprived (I'm so freaking tired), and pissed off. I did my first role call today. I know I can beat this, and I know that I can't beat this alone. I am happy a place like this exists. I wouldn't have quit the first time without what I learned here (obviously I didn't learn enough), and I will not be doing it alone this time.

Welcome imBushe,
It is hard to come to the realization that you are addicted and like the rest of us, have tried and failed to do it on your own.
This site works great, good quitters and a good system. Post roll, get active and invest in your quit.
ID

[imBushe]

I am here to ask forgiveness. I insulted you and you never knew. I thought I was stronger than you. I believed that I could quit on my own. I though I was smarter than you. I decided it was okay to pick what wisdom I needed and what wisdom was a waste of my time. March 2016 I became a quitter. Sure enough, I made it 9 months before I caved. I lurked this site more than long enough to know better.

I have struggled even writing this post. I am ashamed of myself. I had made it so far. I dipped for 20 years. I was 12 when I took my first dip. Almost 2/3's of my life has been under nicotine's thumb. Pride was my downfall. So I am here, 2 days quit. Fog in my ears, blurred vision, anxiety, joint pain, sleep deprived (I'm so freaking tired), and pissed off. I did my first role call today. I know I can beat this, and I know that I can't beat this alone. I am happy a place like this exists. I wouldn't have quit the first time without what I learned here (obviously I didn't learn enough), and I will not be doing it alone this time.