Howdy y'all,
Im currently a junior petroleum engineering student who used to dip about a can of cope wintergreen a day from November 2014 to 3 days ago (January 11th, 2016).
Why did i decide to quit? Well at 9:35am 3 days ago i spat out my last dip (however i didnt know it was my last at the time), and thoroughly cleaned my mouth to go to a routine bi-annual dentist visit. After the assistant finished cleaning my mouth (I even got a "You've taken great care of your mouth" which really surprised me...) the doctor himself comes over to finish up. The assistant tells him my dipping history, so he performs a oral exam real quick. I remember the words verbatim, granted it was all of 3 days ago. He's almost done, but right at the end says "I dont like the look of that. Im referring you to the maxillofacialist Dr. xxxxxx, and you're going to walk over there right now" (I know this oral surgeon already as hes the dude that took my wisdom teeth out). At this point im shitting bricks. Fortunately, he takes a look at it and says its nothing to worry about and wasnt the "white lesion" i was referred for. It was just a temporary dead cell buildup the body creates in the exposure to the acidic dip environment. For a better explanation, when i dip sometimes the very tip of my bottom gum on one of the 2 front teeth with turn white, but later turn back to normal after the dip is out.
Ever seen the show "beyond scared straight"? Yea, that was me haha... Almost 3 days in come 9:35am, and im feeling it... I already have horrible anxiety issues with school work/exams and stuff (why i took up dip in the first place haha) so to be having these fits of anger and spontaneous anxiety attacks without even having any work yet terrifies me... Classes dont even start until the 19th, and im already having these fits.
Any words of advice? Insights to what im feeling? Perhaps some words of wisdom haha :) \
Also, ive been on vyvanse for 2 years now if that changes anything. Thanks yall, and god bless