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Re: Came here on my 12th day
« Reply #5 on: November 18, 2011, 08:14:00 AM »
Southern.....proud to be quit with another former ninja dipper! Keep it up!

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Re: Came here on my 12th day
« Reply #4 on: November 18, 2011, 02:03:00 AM »
Just a quick update for anyone interested... About 47 minutes ago I started Day 27. Below some of you commented about me not telling my family. Well, I usually don't go against the veteran's advice; however, I never said anything to them. I am a bit of a loner even with my family. I dipped alone and so I quit alone. (Hey, it seems to work for me so I stuck with it.) I used the fact that I'm a "loner" as a tool for my quit. The only person I could be angry with was myself for starting.

I often wonder, as a dipper, why I even bothered continuing. For example, I visited a friend in Alaska during the summer. I didn't even pack my dip for the trip because this friend thought I had quit back in 2009. I left my can in the truck back at the airport. I got to Alaska and I had "weak" craves but nothing too horrible because I just didn't think about it much. Then, as soon as my plane landed I was at my truck in no time throwing the shit in my mouth as fast as I could. If I could go a week without a dip just to keep it a secret I thought again, "What is the point? What the hell am I doing?" Basically, I am ashamed of being an addict and I'm using that shame yet as another tool for my quit.

As for depression and stress... well, there has been no lack of that. I got laid off from work and my father was put in ICU (thankfully ok now) early on in my quit; however, in my mind caving was NOT an option. It's really mind over matter and thankfully I had enough balls to push those urges away during stressful times. Now that I'm out of work I tend to get the worst craves while I'm job searching. This is annoying because being on the computer itself is a "trigger" so I have to watch it. I tried the fake stuff (Jake's) and initially thought it was a nice substitute, but after a while I gave up. Just like DIP it was not benefiting me and I was sneaking around using the fake (why even bother, right?).

Welp, that's about it. Stay quit folks... I certainly will!!! Feels damn good NOT to be a slave to the can anymore. Kickin' nic's ass one day at a time.
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Re: Came here on my 12th day
« Reply #3 on: November 03, 2011, 02:02:00 PM »
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OK...  So where do I begin???  Well, interestingly enough I decided to Quit on Oct 23.  I took my last dip out at around 8:00pm on the 22nd and have been dip free since.  I decided to quit on Oct 23 for many reasons... 1) Because that was the day I started chewing back in 2006 (damn peer pressure and college stress).  2) Everyone knows that the holidays are coming...  and quitting means you will be eating a hell of a lot more etc etc...  So, I guess my new years resolution will be weight control (Rome wasn't built in a day, right?) 

So, here's a bit of insider info about me.  I have quit 3 times previously.  Once back in July that only lasted 5 days.  Once Jan 1st back in 2009... I was off the stuff for 16 days then mind games led me back to a can a day habit in no time...  THEN in June of 2008 I stopped for a week.  So I'm looking forward to my first milestone of NOV 7th.  That of course is my 17th day, the longest I've been off since I started. 

It has been tough.  The only person that knows I have quit is myself.  The reason I'm not asking for support from my family or friends is because they are under the impression I gave it up in 2009.  For almost 2 years I was being very sneaky.  A can a day habit behind closed doors ISN'T EASY!!!  No one even has a clue!!!  And since I'm single... well, that helps me conceal it even more.  The reason I said NO MORE is because I'm tired of sneaking around and feeling guilty.  I've often wondered, "Whats the point?"  Seriously, if I'm doing all I can to hide it from others, why not just quit and not worry about it?  So far... so good. 

Nice to find a place online where I can get a little support though.  Nice to meet you all.
The first thing that you can do is to be honest with yourself and all of those around you.

I congratulate you on being quit for 11 full days, but here at the KTC we worry about today.

You are an addict, and you always will be an addict. That is the first pointer I will share with you. Secondly, you are not an island. You don't want to tell the truth to your family and friends because you don't want them to judge you if you fail. You are giving yourself an option to use again.

We post roll every morning and promise not to use nicotine in any form for the entire day. It doesn't matter what we do, just as long as we leave that shit out of our bodies.

This is your quit group:

January 2012 quit group

If you need instructions (or expanations of what we are and what we stand for), go to the pink "Welcome Center" at the top of this page.

I suggest you get a few telephone numbers of other quitters and make some friends. We all have or are going through the same shit that you are or will be.

Post roll.
Stay Quit.
Repeat.

A PM has been sent to you with my cell phone number.
Congrats on 16 days.

Panel is right. Come clean. You dipped in secret...you can't quit in secret. You don't know the changes you are in for. The familyneeds to know.

I'll bet you weren't as sneaky as you think, anyway.

Post roll.

Keep your word.

Repeat.

If you need something shoot me a PM or just ask Waste. He knows the cleanest hookers.
What is your major malfunction?!?!?!?!

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Re: Came here on my 12th day
« Reply #2 on: November 03, 2011, 12:14:00 PM »
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OK... So where do I begin??? Well, interestingly enough I decided to Quit on Oct 23. I took my last dip out at around 8:00pm on the 22nd and have been dip free since. I decided to quit on Oct 23 for many reasons... 1) Because that was the day I started chewing back in 2006 (damn peer pressure and college stress). 2) Everyone knows that the holidays are coming... and quitting means you will be eating a hell of a lot more etc etc... So, I guess my new years resolution will be weight control (Rome wasn't built in a day, right?)

So, here's a bit of insider info about me. I have quit 3 times previously. Once back in July that only lasted 5 days. Once Jan 1st back in 2009... I was off the stuff for 16 days then mind games led me back to a can a day habit in no time... THEN in June of 2008 I stopped for a week. So I'm looking forward to my first milestone of NOV 7th. That of course is my 17th day, the longest I've been off since I started.

It has been tough. The only person that knows I have quit is myself. The reason I'm not asking for support from my family or friends is because they are under the impression I gave it up in 2009. For almost 2 years I was being very sneaky. A can a day habit behind closed doors ISN'T EASY!!! No one even has a clue!!! And since I'm single... well, that helps me conceal it even more. The reason I said NO MORE is because I'm tired of sneaking around and feeling guilty. I've often wondered, "Whats the point?" Seriously, if I'm doing all I can to hide it from others, why not just quit and not worry about it? So far... so good.

Nice to find a place online where I can get a little support though. Nice to meet you all.
The first thing that you can do is to be honest with yourself and all of those around you.

I congratulate you on being quit for 11 full days, but here at the KTC we worry about today.

You are an addict, and you always will be an addict. That is the first pointer I will share with you. Secondly, you are not an island. You don't want to tell the truth to your family and friends because you don't want them to judge you if you fail. You are giving yourself an option to use again.

We post roll every morning and promise not to use nicotine in any form for the entire day. It doesn't matter what we do, just as long as we leave that shit out of our bodies.

This is your quit group:

January 2012 quit group

If you need instructions (or expanations of what we are and what we stand for), go to the pink "Welcome Center" at the top of this page.

I suggest you get a few telephone numbers of other quitters and make some friends. We all have or are going through the same shit that you are or will be.

Post roll.
Stay Quit.
Repeat.

A PM has been sent to you with my cell phone number.
In the end I Surrender, I and I alone accept that I have and always will have a Nicotene ADDICTION. It is my choice to quit, but I can't do it alone. I get to go down this path one time, I want to do it right. I recognize that my word, my integrety to you is on the line and is only as good as my actions. Caving is not an option in this plan-Eafman 7/11

I am not cured. I will quit one day at a time. I will continue to do what works. Posting roll everyday. To do otherwise would be foolish on my part. You can do this-Ready 12/11

To overcome your addiction you must comprehend what it means to fail-Razd 3/12

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I want everyone to be quit. Even the assholes.-Probe1957 1/18

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Came here on my 12th day
« on: November 03, 2011, 12:04:00 PM »
OK... So where do I begin??? Well, interestingly enough I decided to Quit on Oct 23. I took my last dip out at around 8:00pm on the 22nd and have been dip free since. I decided to quit on Oct 23 for many reasons... 1) Because that was the day I started chewing back in 2006 (damn peer pressure and college stress). 2) Everyone knows that the holidays are coming... and quitting means you will be eating a hell of a lot more etc etc... So, I guess my new years resolution will be weight control (Rome wasn't built in a day, right?)

So, here's a bit of insider info about me. I have quit 3 times previously. Once back in July that only lasted 5 days. Once Jan 1st back in 2009... I was off the stuff for 16 days then mind games led me back to a can a day habit in no time... THEN in June of 2008 I stopped for a week. So I'm looking forward to my first milestone of NOV 7th. That of course is my 17th day, the longest I've been off since I started.

It has been tough. The only person that knows I have quit is myself. The reason I'm not asking for support from my family or friends is because they are under the impression I gave it up in 2009. For almost 2 years I was being very sneaky. A can a day habit behind closed doors ISN'T EASY!!! No one even has a clue!!! And since I'm single... well, that helps me conceal it even more. The reason I said NO MORE is because I'm tired of sneaking around and feeling guilty. I've often wondered, "Whats the point?" Seriously, if I'm doing all I can to hide it from others, why not just quit and not worry about it? So far... so good.

Nice to find a place online where I can get a little support though. Nice to meet you all.
Started: 10/23/2006 at ~10:00pm CDT
Quit: 10/22/2011 at 8:00pm CDT
HOF: 01/30/2012
Second Floor: May 9, 2012
My HOF Speech