Hope this post works…brain is not functioning at full capacity at present. Day 1.
Beginning this morning, I am fully committed to ending a 16-year love/hate affair with Copenhagen. As a can-a-day user, that equates to 5,840 days, around $20,000 with nothing to show, gum lines that make me nervous, and a healthy fear of oral cancer that will stay with me for the rest of my days.
I will keep the introduction short. Today I need to keep my mind off the hurt by going out with the wife and kid. Before joining this site and making Day 1 official, I tapered off nicotine using the gum. Thus, the fog is not quite as bad as it has been in the past. This is not my first attempt at quitting, so I know the fog well. However, this WILL be the last time I ever quit. I just can’t live with this habit in my life any longer. I went to the hospital 2-weeks ago and visited a friend (Aged 60, with 30-year tobacco habit) who had half of his jaw and tongue removed to stop the spread of cancer. Hell, I even put a dip in on the way to see this guy! However, after being in that room, and seeing the result of this lifestyle choice, the fear has me by the balls and I am done. This is Day 12 with no Copenhagen, however; this is Day 1 without the crutches or nicotine sidekicks.
All for today. I look forward to reading your stories tomorrow and in the coming weeks.